what i wan to say

boyf criteria!

2012-01-05T23:16:00.000+08:00

found this on tumblr!

so cute right :D

有你真好。(:

2011-10-03T05:04:00.003+08:00

有一点我能肯定，有你真好。(:

to all my friends, i love you so much (:

okayy, off to Bangkok by the time anyone reads this (:
will be back with LOADS of photos from BKK :D
mean while, stay awesome, everybody!

我不甘心。

2011-09-28T04:47:00.003+08:00

why did we end up like that.

like two strangers who've never met.

i'm still waiting for the day when we become like how we used to be.

foolish, but true.

i'm still looking forward to that day.

there hasn't been a day whereby i wouldn't think about us.

how did things end up like this?

i don't know.

the only thing i'm certain is,

you destroyed me.

a part of me will always miss us.

"I go back to december all the time."
what a relevant song lyric.
so close to my heart.

i wouldn't change any part of me, just to make you stay.

2011-09-19T04:47:00.005+08:00

sudden gush of negative emotions hit me likaa 100km/hr train.

"Deep down inside my bitchy attitude,

lies a major insecure kid.
i don't remember much about my childhood.
all i remember was that i cried a lot.
i didn't had a happy childhood."

let's just leave it as that.

i'm afraid to be vulnerable.
it's just that i'm used to telling people "i'm okay"
to the extent that nobody thinks that i will ever have "not-okay" moments.

but, one day, i will be okay.
because 'what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger' right?

You,
i don't know if you still do visit my blog like how you used to.
but i just wanna say that i'm sorry for MIA-ing from your life, again.
I just don't have the courage to say bye.
All along, being friends with you was like, a bonus to me.
I always push friends out of my life. always.
and they never came back.
but you were different. you come back, every time, forgiving me for all the stupid stuff that i do.
You were always there for me, knocking sense into me.
but this time, i'm really letting go.
i can't let this "push-forgive" friendship carry on like this.
i'm sorry.

and thank you for everything you've done for me all these years, never once giving up on me.

p.s it may seem silly but you don't really know the internal struggle in me, do you?

Organization interview on tuesday.
Wish me luck (:

oh, did i mention that i've officially kept all my npcc stuff in my cupboard (except for the PT kits since ATC's not over yet) and don't intend to touch them for a longgggggg longgggggg time.
phewww. that was a major decision you know.
the fact that npcc was a BIG part of my life since 2005, it was kinda hard to get used to life without npcc. but oh wellzxzx, i will survive :D
I had lots of fun during my years as QTSS CI and i thank all my fellow CIs and cadets for all the fun. all the best~ i love you guys soooooo much.

so, it's goodbye npcc, and hello internship (:

do you ever feel, like a plastic bag

2011-08-23T02:34:00.005+08:00

a zillion years since i've blogged.

~~lack of motivation.~~

~~no feeling~~

~~busy~~
fine. i admit, i'm just pure lazy.

things around me are happening like it's played on fast forward.

it's scaring me how fast things are going right now.

it's like i've lost control of the brakes and just madly speeding forward.

if there's an obstacle,

yes

i'll crash and burn.

got to seek peace in His presence.

i'll be alright, because i'm in His hands.
Thank You for loving me unconditionally and not giving up on me.

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on a lighter note,

i'm posted to Yong En Care Centre for internship.

Feeling excited about it 'cuz i know that place and...

>.< it's near my house >.<

waiting for Mr Jonathan to inform me about the working hours and job description! :D

interview this friday.

gotta start working on the cover letter, resume and needs analysis thingy~

pray that everything will be fine!

2011-07-25T23:38:00.000+08:00

2011-07-25T09:34:00.002+08:00

I'M BACK!
here to share a personal GMH story. (:

was really feeling very lousy since yesterday afternoon. i was practically hiding under my blanket and cry, refusing to do anything. like a depressed teenage girl. managed to get myself up in the evening to do some work but still feeling really lousy :/ then i tweeted 'i'm not perfect, but will you still love me?' and a friend of mine, whom i haven't talked for quite some time, replied 'don't worry, i will(:' although it was just a tweet, such simple gesture GMH(: furthermore, without me telling him much, he called me and we chatted for 3 hours (y) and i managed to get everything off my chest(:

simple actions GMH (:

i really wanna take this opportunity to thank God for placing people in my life to GMH(: reminding me to smile and not give up. i've experienced Him in a special way yesterday(: spread the love and joy. i hope that everyone will stay happy.

p.s. i'm not having depression. just really upset. you know, those really down moments you will have occasionally.

i just wanna say

2011-06-28T23:21:00.003+08:00

i'll be taking a hiatus from blogging for awhile.
really freaking impossible to blog regularly yet finish my assignments on time.
REALLY SORRY!
i'll try to update A.S.A.P.
have an awesome week/month ahead! =D

#ijustwannasay
I REALLY WANT A GUY BESTFRIEND.
I WANT AN ELDER BROTHER!
okay, i really really really want an elder brother.
one that is really awesome.
one that will be there for me when i'm upset.
a shoulder for me to cry on
a pair of ears to listen to me
who will make the effort to make me smile (:
wake me up when i got lessons early in the morning. (DAMN IMPORTANT)
will never judge me no matter what i do.
do retarded stuff with me =D
in short, just BE NICE to me (:

no, not a boyf.

6/28

2011-06-25T22:59:00.002+08:00

guess why my title says 6/28?
i got my inspiration from the attendance of my squad on monday's training.
i'm very tired of saying any further.
let's just leave it as "i'm utterly disappointed in them"
do whatever you guys want.
just don't ever tell me things like "i love npcc" "let's bond" and whatever related stuff.
suddenly, everything that you guys had ever promised, sounded like lies after lies to me.
thank you very much (y)

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i'm so sick of going to training.
maybe i should pon trainings too?
shall i?

2011-06-22T23:53:00.004+08:00

i haven't been controlling myself from thinking about you these few days.

i miss you, us, and all the memories.

deep down in me, i know that those memories were with a motive

but i'm still blindly holding on to them.

~~tell me how to forget you.~~

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and to the one who has been asking me those questions on formspring,
yea. i know who you are.
always know that.
you've always been the one knocking sense into me, getting me to realise another point of view.
you're just the silent guardian angel
i've always felt your presence.
thanks a lot.

2011-06-21T03:16:00.002+08:00

2011-06-18T23:23:00.001+08:00

hello people (:

i'm back from 30 hour famine camp! =D

but i'm too tired to blog.

shall do it tomorrow or monday!

till then... XD

we are hungry, but they are starving!

2011-06-15T03:04:00.009+08:00

haven't been blogging for the past i-don't-know-how-many-days.

my bad.

this post shan't be long.

just gonna tell ALL OF YOU GUYS, what i'll be doing for the coming weekend =D

as the photo says everything, YES!

i'm gonna be a facilitator for 30 hour famine camp 2011! =D

survived through the faci training + dry run :D

Day 0 starts on thursday, a final dry run + training & we're all set for camp on friday!

before i start "uttering" all my excitement for the camp,

shall give a short intro on what 30 hour famine camp is all about =D

30 hour Famine Camp is a fundraiser organized by World Vision where youth participants go without food for 30 hours straight.

They will be doing a series of activities, simulating the life of an individual in a third world country.

To make a stand against global hunger, injustice & poverty.

A worldwide event that will impact lives and benefit both the participants and the people who are living in poverty.

So what is World Vision about?

World Vision is a

"Christian relief, development and advocacy organisation dedicated to working with children, families and communities worldwide to reach their full potential by tackling the causes of poverty and injustice." (obtained from their website)

They serve all people regardless of age, gender, religion, race, differences.

and their work extends to more than 100million people in nearly 100 countries.

VERY meaningful right? =D

I'll leave the rest for you guys to read =D

Anyway, back to topic.

i'll be facilitating in the camp! (excitment x100000000000000000000000)

Frankly speaking, i've never participated in 30 hour famine camp before. Neither have i fasted for >8 hours before. (the last time i fasted for 8 hours was for my church)

But, i don't know why, this time, i'm really excited for it because i know that it is going to be a very very very very meaningful camp and i'll learn a lot from it.

I wonder what my group would be like since it consists of people from various schools. ranging from sec 3s - JC. (y)

I hope that they will all be niceeeeeee and sweet people =D

My "journey" to become a facilitator:

Interview

it was a very very short interview.

asking us "troubleshooting questions" and getting our responses.

Briefing us on the dates for training.

that's all >.<

Facilitator training:

A lecture on what world vision does and a bit of info on famine camp + our roles and duties.

Ice breaker (a very cute one) LOL.

Workshop on facilitation (very useful i tell you~)

A talk by a guy.. (i forgot his name) but confirm is someone very important in world vision. =D

Dry Run:

Went through Phase 1,2,4

i cannot leak out the details of the phases because the camp is not over yet! =D

shall take photos during the camp and show you guys (hopefully i remember)

This coming thursday, DAY 0 ! =D

i'll be updating my twitter (whenever i can use my phone) to update u guys on the progress of the camp!

soooooooo stay tuned!

lastly,

strongly urge all of you to join famine camp next year (2012)! =D

Individuals aged 15-18 can join as campers

Individuals aged 19 and above can join as facilitators!

Alternatively, you can check out World Vision's website to read up on the details to sponsor a child! =D

Readers from Singapore can click on the link below : www.worldvision.org.sg

Readers from other countries can google "world vision" and u'll find the World Vision organization of your country. =D

All the best to everyone!

shall blog about the camp when i'm back =D
have a blessed weekend!

it ends tonight.

2011-06-02T22:48:00.003+08:00

tonight, everything shall start and end tonight.

i'd enough of sad emotions, enough of emo posts.

the hurt should end tonight.

all memories shall be sealed up.

all the best, t.

"those who matter, don't mind and those who mind, don't matter"

2011-06-02T13:35:00.013+08:00

someday, i'll be able to think back on our friendship, smile and laugh at all the silly moments we had together.

someday, i'll look back and realise that how strong i am to be able to go through all these.

someday, i'll learn to love again, without hurt.

i'm nice to people i want to be nice to.

don't ever try changing me.

because people who aren't nice to me don't deserve the good side of me.

and i can really be very very very very very bitchy to people who don't like me.

because the feelings are mutual. very mutual.

i used to think that as long as i'm nice to people, people will definitely be nice to me

but some people made me realise that there are just gonna be haters out there.

so JUST BE YOURSELF (:

"those who matter, don't mind and those who mind, don't matter"
- unknown

think before you judge.

the girl, whom you judged at attention seeking because she laughs/talks loudly in class, might be crying silently under her blanket every night.

the guy whom you judged as lazy because he skips classes regularly might be sick/juggling with night jobs just to support his family.

the girl whom you judged as a whore because she is pregnant at the age of 18 might be a victim of rape and she's strong enough to not abort the child.

who are you to judge others when you're not even that great yourself?

who are you to belittle someone else when you're not that capable yourself?

here's a video on bullying.

share it with your friends, family.

i don't know if it's a real life story BUT we all know that this (bullying) happens everyday.

so stop judging today.

make this world a better place.

Taylor Swift's song - Mean.

if you're having a low self-esteem today, take some time to listen to the song (:

i hope that everyone will have an awesome day ahead (:

tired of trying.

2011-06-01T23:45:00.002+08:00

are you?

because i am.

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on a side note,

i wonder how people from overseas found my blog. (:

but still appreciate it! :D

2011-06-01T00:06:00.004+08:00

i'm going through a really rough patch now.

towards you, all that's left is only disappointment.

and it's turning into resentment.

you made me realise that our friendship meant nth to you.

it was just a source of entertainment to you in the past.

i'm picking up these hidden meanings behind your actions that i was so afraid to know.

so afraid to the extent that i was in denial.

i didnt even dare to blog about us.

afraid to explore all these thoughts.

but all these efforts were useless and stupid.

utterly disappointed.

i'm changing, and i'm afraid of changing because i'm turning into someone i used to be.

i'm afraid to hate, afraid to dislike.

i'm most afraid to hurt.

i haven't been blogging happy thoughts recently. :/

so sorry.

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dear God,

i know You'll give me the strength to go through this rough patch.

Please help me be a better person.

us

2011-05-22T14:20:00.005+08:00

how i wish..

i go back to december all the time..

when everything were happy and simple.

i miss the old "us".

but things will never be the same again.

the last thing i can do for you is to

promiseyoui'llneverstepintoyourlifeagain.

2011-05-19T23:56:00.004+08:00

i don't wanna put my thoughts about us in words cuz i guess it will be a 10 pages thesis. LOL.

also, every thought stab me like a cold knife :/

i'm glad we're friends once again.

but i'm not glad we're friends once again.

the feeling will never be the same anymore.

never.

i'm left with an imperfect smile.

first time i'm so affected by someone :/

don't ever assume that by leaving my life, you're protecting me.

because, whenever someone leaves, my heart builds one additional layer of wall.

to you.

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景

到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还想你
我很不服气也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你

shall continue this post another day, when i have the courage to think of you.

ouch.

2011-05-18T02:23:00.001+08:00

something so awfully true,

so awfully painful.

crap. this blog post make me depressed ):

speak no word but pictures.

2011-05-12T09:17:00.002+08:00

Been posting VERY VERY lengthy & wordy post.

So today just a spam of meaningful pictures from tumblr.

credits to whoever is involved (:

A picture speaks a thousand words, so today i got 3000 words. WOOTZXZX.

Hope these pictures can get you thinking/reflecting.

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blood donation today!

i hope the nurse can find my vein. LOL. :D

shall blog again tonight (hopefully)

let's dance in the rain.

2011-05-11T23:45:00.005+08:00

The weather had been really really really extremely bad nowadays.

It's so bad to the extent that whenever there's rain, i feel like doing a rain dance. LOL.

joking.

I hope that it's only because we're going into Summer time & not because of any other reason (please).

Whatever it is, just remember to protect Mother Earth. (in simple terms : BE ENVIRONMENTAL FRIENDLY PEOPLE)

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4 days since the polling day of GE 2011.

AND PEOPLE ARE STILL COMPLAINING ABOUT THE GOVERNMENT & THE RESULTS.

come on laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

get a life please?

if you claim to love Singapore, then stop creating trouble.

the result is final. that's it.

give them a chance.

so before you see the result of the effort put in by your MPs, DON'T JUDGE.

there's an article written by an "Aljunied resident" accusing PAP for taking revenge by not clearing up the rubbish at Aljunied because they lost the constituency.

this article was NOT supported by the majority of the other Aljunied residents that say that their area is still clean like the past.

Okay, my point here is NOT about whether the resident is lying or not.

my point is, if your area is not clean, then call the town council or go to WP for help la since they are your MPs?

everything also blame PAP ~~a bit~~ SUPER not fair right?

My views on GE 2011 results,

1. I'm glad that PAP still won majority of the seats

however, some of the seats were won by a very small margin. So they would really need to work very hard the next 5 years in order to win the votes back.

Although i support PAP, i feel that there is definitely still rooms for improvement. (y)

Overall, i think that they have done a very good job for the past 4 decades or more. :D

2. Congratulation to the WP for winning 6 seats in the parliament.

i always support the idea of having more opposition voices in the parliament.

However, i feel that PAP should still be the governing party.

Reason? They know Singapore best.

IMO, (i've said a million times) that a good government ought to have policies that benefits the nation's interests & the citizens' interests.

if we only have policies that serve the citizens, Singapore will not improve.

So to strike a balance, we must have a government that knows Singapore best & is willing to serve its citizens with some opposition voices to ensure that policies are well-made. :D

So hopefully, with the increase in opposition voices in the parliament, Singaporeans will stop complaining about how unfair policies are. :D

3. I'm truly truly upset for Mr George Yeo & his team for losing Aljunied GRC :/

to be honest, i cried when the result for Aljunied GRC released.

Although i'm not residing in Aljunied, nor do i belong to the Aljunied GRC, i've been reading up on all the information of Mr George Yeo & IMO, he's really a good MP/Minister that Singapore needs.

Those that don't believe what i say, can go and google his track records kay.

Anyway, whatever i say now won't change anything already because the result is out.

He will not be electing in Aljunied GRC for GE 2016 ):

because he think that the younger generation should be taking over the lead. (y)

all i can say is, all the best to him! :D

4. the Mr Yam Ah Mee's joke is a bit =.=

Is our sense of humor that low to the extent that we make a BIG joke out of a returning officer?

Not that i don't have a sense of humor & not that i don't think it's just a light-hearted joke but seriously, i think the joke is getting a bit =.=

with merchandise and products with his face, with a club/radio mix of his voice reporting the results?

Making fun of his voice, the way he speak etc. ?

oh wellzxzx.

Nothing to say. Just hope the joke will die down soon.

5. Ms Tin Pei Ling.

okay, i didn't really comment about her at all but since her haters are really getting louder and louder, i guess i'll say

"stop slamming her. give her a chance to prove herself in these 5 years. no point having campaigns to ask the government to remove her and what not. if after an election, you complain or campaign then they remove someone, we have election for what? Think rationally laaa. What's wrong with the Kate Spade photo & buying Kate Spade? (nothing's wrong) I understand that she isn't really performing well in interviews & stuff BUT that doesn't mean she cannot serve the residents well. let's give her a chance &&&&&&&& we'll see her "report card" in 5 years' time :D so till then, calm down! what for make yourself so angry over something that cannot be changed?"

6. last point yet the MOST important one

i think the last thing an election should caused is to have fellow Singaporeans having disputes with fellow Singaporeans.

We are all Singaporeans no matter what political ideology or political party we believe in.

Integration, not segregation. (y)

At the end of the day, we should come together & progress as a nation. (y)

this roughly sums up what i have to say for GE 2011.

This is the final post, i promise :D

For you haters out there, i'm sorry if you don't agree with what i say.

but please realise that everyone has different opinions.

So live & let live? :D

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i forgot a title.

2011-05-10T11:36:00.006+08:00

i'm on the bus now, so i thought of blogging to kill time.
for those of you who don't understand chinese, don't mind my previous posts that are in chinese.
thought that chinese was the better language to express my feelings at that moment.
so here i am, back in english :D
i was very upset recently by people who dislike me for no apparent reason.

i didnt do anything to them (at all) and they just don't like me. i wonder why.

nonetheless, pw & dina spoke to me about it and yea, i'm feeling better already (:

i just wanna say, when i don't like you/something, i'll voice it out.
i don't really believe in solving problems by avoiding it.
so more often than not, i might appear to be really rude, bitchy and stuck up to you,
i totally apologize for that.

however, what i wish is that, if you don't like me, just say it out.

it will work 1000000 times better than stabbing my back.

i consider being way too outspoken as a flaw of mine

but i don't intend to change because i'd rather hurt you with truth than kill you with my lies.

trust me, when i start lying about how i feel towards you,

that's when i really don't bother about your existence in my life.

i don't give a shit to people like that.

similarly, when i scold you, that means u're at least someone to me. not some random strangers that i don't give a shit about.

despite saying this, i know that there are definitely people that fall in the category of judging me as self-centred, mean, bitchy, and someone who is demanding, and would always voice out her opinions.
but there will always be haters. i'm gonna accumulate good karma while u can accumulate all the bad karma. :D
have a good life yoo~ :D

暧昧

2011-05-10T11:28:00.000+08:00

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

只能陪你到这里
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景

到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还想你
我很不服气也开始怀疑
眼前的人是不是同一个真实的你

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽停在这里

暧昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

暧昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽停在这里

微笑。

2011-05-09T23:26:00.000+08:00

因为害怕失去温暖，所以才让自己冷漠和疏远。

我总在别人面前装出一副 ‘不在乎’，好像和整个世界为敌的态度。

觉得自己就像刺猬一样，让人无法接近。

很多人都对我避之唯恐不及。

我害怕别人的关怀，我害怕别人的关心，我更害怕别人温暖的爱。

我宁可别人不要走进我的世界也好过走进了才选择离开。

为了保护自己，我选择在心里建设一道隐形的墙。

我不让任何人走进我的世界。

但我讨厌这样的自己！！

所以，你的出现，改变了我。

原本以为我能开始接受别人。

但，当我试着接受的温暖时，我又开始失去温暖。

我以为你会是那个让我一直一直微笑的人，但，我错了。

尽管你以前所有的承诺，你还是伤害了我。

如果无法实现你的承诺，一开始就不要承诺。

无法实现承诺带来的伤痛，比不承诺，还要痛上一万倍。

我已没有勇气再接受别人的温暖了。

或许，在整个过程中，我真的喜欢上你。

但，我不曾想过改变我们的关系。

你的逃避，让我更加明白一切。

我知道，我们已无法再像以前那样了。

但，我还是要谢谢你给过我的每一段回忆。 (:

我，答应你，我会更勇敢。

2011-05-09T00:20:00.001+08:00

不是不爱，是不敢爱。

something that i've never been able to tell you.

One last chance.

2011-05-06T22:58:00.005+08:00

I'll probably just do this one last post on my thoughts about the GE 2011 because of some issues that i failed to address the previous longgggg post.

I know it's "cooling off" day but i'm not a PAP candidate, so under Parliamentary Elections Act, i'm allowed to express my view.

Website that tells it all:

http://www.news.gov.sg/public/sgpc/en/media_releases/agencies/mica-pcd/press_release/P-20110504-1/AttachmentPar/0/file/Press%20release-%20Cooling%20off%20day%20and%20Polling%20Day.pdf

This election isn't about "taking revenge" against the government.

It isn't about attacking them.

it isn't about quarreling / fighting with fellow Singaporeans, which party is better.

it isn't about forcing the government.

it isn't about degrading either party.

it isn't about humiliating the government.

THIS ELECTION IS ABOUT GIVING SINGAPORE A BETTER FUTURE, TO ALLOW SINGAPOREANS TO BUILD THE NATION TOGETHER WITH THE GOVERNMENT.

As quoted in Guide Me Singapore, "Singapore is one of the few countries that do not have to worry about their public debt" (http://www.guidemesingapore.com/relocation/introduction/singapores-economy)

Look, this is something that the government has achieved isn't it?

you can complain about high taxation, high GST, high cost of living.

but without all these HIGHs, we wouldn't be able to survive the economy downturn a few years back. We were one of the fastest country to get over the economy downturn.

of course, you can argue saying that "this is our money" but think, isn't this your country? so is it right to help your country?

Policies now are maintaining Singapore's revenue.

Do you really think that lowering the GST/Taxation/Cost of living will help Singapore?

The answer is no. Instead, it will make it harder for Singapore to survive another economy downfall.

You claim that you love & care for Singapore, each and everyone of you. And i do not doubt that. So isn't it fair now that you fork out money to help your country?

No doubt, cost of living is high, but i believe, without degrading/attacking our government, they will do something about it.

so can we please just give them another chance? on the account of all the good things that they have done for Singapore?

I'm not saying that the policies by the OP is not good, but what i'm saying here is that the government knows Singapore best and they know what Singapore needs. The policies made/proposed by the OP might not be that suitable and might affect Singapore.

We all want a stable and secure homeland. Policies should be made at not only the citizen's best interest, but also the nation's best interest. So think carefully, think wisely, are the policies proposed now, suitable?

Another issue that i feel upset is regarding the apology.

When PAP don't apologize, you guys say that they are ignorant, proud and blah blah blah.

BUT

when they apologize, you guys say that they are fake, they just wanna win the votes, blah blah blah.

Seriously? When you make a mistake, will you want the person to forgive you? Would you want the other person to say that your apology is fake? No right?

then why are we saying things like this to our government?

Don't tell me that they are only apologizing because they want to win your votes. Then what about those people who cried infront of the media or say that they are upset or whatever? Are you trying to say that they are fake too? No right?

I don't see the need for them to apologize for the floods =.=

i don't see the need for them to apologize for the escape of Mas Selamat. (it's the guard's fault)

BUT they apologize because they are the kind of leaders Singapore needs and by apologizing, they reflect themselves as TRUE leaders. A true leader is one that is able to apologize when the citizens are unhappy. they apologize because they are willing to take full responsible. this is the kind of leader that i want.

I want leaders that apologize when needed, listen to us and care about us AND the nation. not only the money issues or the citizen's issue. i want leaders that care about both the citizens and the nation.

Imagine, our government is our parents and now the children are all turning their backs against them because of a few mistakes. Do you betray your parents because of a few mistakes? Those of you who are parents yourself, would you wish that your children speak ill of you and never forgive your mistakes even after you apologise?

From the start till now, I've never once said that i disagree having opposition party voices in the parliament.

In fact, i agree that there ought to be opposition voices in the parliament to ensure that policies are of the best quality.

However, i don't agree that the opposition party should be there to force the government to step down. I don't agree that the opposition party should condemn PAP for the mistakes that they made.

I just wanna ask this one question. "Are they sure that they are able to do as well, or even BETTER than the government?"

I'm not doubting their abilities. In fact i think that there are really a few candidates in the opposition party that are really caring for Singapore. However, the way they took was way too extreme. I just hope that the opposition party can calm down, look at the good side of PAP and stop shooting their policies or mistakes..

there can be debates but it must be a healthy debate. not digging up each other's mistakes and shoot shoot shoot without coming up with a solution.

Can we, Singaporeans, give our government one last chance to prove themselves during these 5 years? Let us not condemn them now. Let's give them another chance to serve us, to prove that they are capable! I really want a secure and stable homeland and i'm sure PAP is able to live up to the promise because they have been doing so for the past 4 decades. Let us all unite as One Singapore to support PAP this time. To give them one more chance.

Live and let live.

Forgive and forget.

I'll be praying for wisdom in each and every Singaporean.

I'll be praying for Singapore's future.

I'll be praying for Aljunied's PAP candidate, Minister of Foreign Affairs, George Yeo.

I'll be praying for forgiveness.

Please vote wisely.

the club can't even handle me right naoo

2011-05-05T22:48:00.004+08:00

when everything seems like a blur,

when everything seems like black & white,

remember, there's always something good to look forward to.

It's times like this that make me wonder what did i do to deserve such awesome friends.

Although i lose friends every now and then, those that stayed were my motivation to move on each time after every upset.

I'm slowly getting out of the pain.

So promise me, you (all) will be there, holding on to my hand when i fall again.

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There are always haters in our lives.

(they are SUPER irritating aren't they?)

What is wrong with you?

Ugh, how i wish i can bitch slap you.

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Tomorrow is Cooling Day.

I'm gonna urge all of you once again to take this chance to think carefully, choose wisely on the one you think can truly represent citizens in the parliament. (y)

The future of Singapore lies in each and every one of your hand.

Do not only look at the policies that they are saying now.

Look at their track records, who is more trustworthy in your eyes (:

Decide using your mind, not your emotions :D

Once again, i'm gonna say this.

I am NOT claiming that i know politics. Neither am i saying that any party is good/bad. Just a penny for my thoughts on this issue :D

Ask, listen, ponder, understand.

2011-05-04T21:55:00.010+08:00

This is going to be the most solemn & most chim blog i've ever blogged about.

- The Singapore General Election 2011.

The reason for this blog post is purely and simply due to the fact that i don't want to spam my twitter with all my thoughts about the GE. Furthermore, as you all know, twitter has a word limit and more often than not, i have to break up my thoughts into pieces.

(added on 5/5/11) Disclaimer: I don't mean i know politics. These are just my thoughts and views after reading and watching everything. So don't slam me with comments like "you know nuts about politics", "you don't know anything about life" or whatsoever since i didn't claim that i know politics. I don't know how politics and politicians work but this is just my humble opinion as a Singaporean. (y)

You may agree OR disagree with what i say but at the end of the day, my post is not to influence you. It's solely MY point of view without any influence from anyone too. So those who don't agree, or think that i'm being lame/ridiculous/retarded/etc, you can DON'T read it. (y)

Since the start of GE 2011, i have been following up closely on the news and updates of it. I watched online videos on rallies, speeches, forums and even look at facebook and twitter. Below, are all my thoughts and comments on everything that i have heard or read or watched for the past few weeks.

- YOU WANT YOUR FREEDOM OF SPEECH/THOUGHT/VIEW, SO DO OTHERS.

Come on, we've got to stop scolding one and another for their choice of party. You have the rights think that the opposition party is good, better or even the best BUT you DON'T have the rights to insult PAP or the supporters of PAP. I'm not saying this because i support PAP but because from all that i've gathered, the most frequent insults come from supporters of the opposition party. (i wonder why)

Worse still, you insult the other party. You can support whoever you want for all you care, but please bear this in mind, not everyone has the same thoughts as you. Just keep your insults and scoldings to yourself. Who has the right to say that someone else's choice is wrong? - nobody. It's all our views and opinions. Live & let live.

add on: just watched another video and was HORRIFIED to learn that people actually vandalise PAP's posters, vans and some of the posters were even stolen?! Are you serious? I mean, hey, where are your moral values? Do you really think that this is the right action to prove that the party you support is good? Do you really think your actions will benefit the party you support? Think with your mind/brain, not your emotions. Don't allow your emotions to overrule your actions. Like i've said, you can don't like a particular party but you do not insult nor damage their posters. that's the last thing you should do.

- IS SINGAPORE REALLY THAT BAD UNDER THE GOVERN OF OUR GOVERNMENT?

First of all, I belong to the youth generation and IMO, i think our government has done a FANTASTIC job. I don't mean that they are perfect because i don't believe in a perfect government. I think that it is very unfair to blame them for everything and anything. Stop blaming them that there are poor people. There are definitely people who will fall into the cracks. And at least the government is trying to do something about it. So instead of complaining, blaming, scolding, think of ways to help? Think in their shoes IF you were in their shoes, can you do a better job?

Secondly, i've been hearing complains and complains and complains about all the mistakes that the government had made all these years. Some of the most common topics are, Cost of living, Influx of FT, Housing, Transport, Money Issues (GST, Taxation, CPF, etc)

No doubt, the cost of living in Singapore is rather high. No doubt the cost of living is causing a lot of stress on Singaporeans. No doubt what some people are earning is not enough to earn a living. I'm not from a rich family either and i know how stress my parents can get when it comes to the cost of living. However, I would urge all of you to look around you. I see HDBs, Skyscraper, IRs, Upgrading program, Increase of MRT network. As our standard of living increase, our cost of living had to increase it. our standard of living and our cost of living are directly proportionate. Instead of just sitting back and look at how Singaporeans struggle with the high cost of living, they come up with policies to help ease the burden (though not totally removing it). Just take this year as an example, the 'Grow & Share' package has definitely benefited most families. The amount might not be ALOT, but it's enough. This is the result of the effort put in by our government and the citizens. So if we continue to work hard and do our part as citizens, supporting our government, i believe more of such policies are coming our way. (y)

I'm not saying that the opposition party cannot deliver similar policies or what. i'm just saying, i totally appreciate the effort that the government had put in for the past decades and i recognize their hardwork and believe that given the chance to win the election this time, they will do their best for us, Singaporeans just like how they did for the past. I do agree that there should be opposition voices in the parliament but it should not be used to attack policies made by the government. There should not be segregation after GE in the parliament. Instead, they should work together, look at each other's view point and come up with policies that will best help Singapore.

Next, influx of FT/FW.

There has been a lot of complains that the FTs are snatching our jobs. To a certain/minimal extent, this sentence is true. It's a fact that FTs are doing jobs that could have been jobs of Singaporeans if they did not come to Singapore. However, let's think of it this way. The most eligible candidate wins. Just like how election, you choose the most eligible party that can work at your best interest, companies do so too. So the only way to get the job is to study hard, work hard. Meritocracy. heard of? I believe most people have heard of this term during your Social Studies in Secondary School. You deserve as per the amount you put in. Having said this, i do not agree that they are "snatching" our jobs. Look at it as a fair competition i guess. We do have Singaporeans going overseas to work too. Such competition will ensure that we work our very best at any time.

Let's move our attention to the FW. We often blame them for the traffic congestion and what not. We blame them for all sorts of things and i even read comments that blame them for snatching jobs of aunties and uncles. Look at the harsh truth will we? I see FWs working under scorching hot sun to build our HDBs, our IRs, our MRT tracks. Are you sure we have enough Singaporeans that are willing to do that job at a minimal pay? I personally do not think so. We need to help of them to build all our infrastructures. So let's bear with the traffic congestion for the time being.

Money Issues. This was certainly the HOTTEST topic of GE 2011. The most frequent sentence i hear in rallies is "Where is our money?". I'm not making this up, go and listen and watch the videos. Oh, regarding the rumor that the GST is going to increase to 10%, let me give you this piece of information that i've received after watching the videos. THERE WILL NOT BE AN INCREASE IN OUR GST FOR AT LEAST THE NEXT 5 YEARS. so stop scolding the government for the rumor. it's not true and it's assured by our PM. So okay, one issue done.

you say our GST is too high, but may i ask what about the GST in all the other developed countries? Don't tell me things like "let's not compare with other countries" because let me ask you, why are you complaining that it's too high? aren't you comparing it with something else too?

Next, CPF. Do you really think that someone would be so happy to keep your money longer? Imagine the horrible consequences if we are allowed to withdraw our CPF earlier. I've compared several websites and found out that the life expectancy of an average Singaporean is about 81-82. State an example, if we are allowed to withdraw our CPF at age 60, and he / she decides to spend it on something or gamble everything away, what is he / she going to use to survive for the next 10-20 years or so? Most of you will say "Ask government to support la. They are suppose to take care of us ma" or some of you will say "he/she spend away his/her money their problem la." This is where some of us will expect the government to take care of this issue. so instead of finding a solution when such thing happen, might as well prevent it? "Prevention is better than cure" heard of it? (:

What i'm trying to say is, there are always 2 sides to a coin. It really depends on how we look at the issue and whether we are willing to look beyond the issue and look at the effort that they have put in. Just to clarify, all these paragraphs are just my personal views, thoughts and feelings about what i've read recently. I do not represent the wishes and views of any party. So don't attack me by saying that i'm blindly following/supporting a particular party. I based my judgment purely on what i see, hear, read and understand. (:

Summary:

I'm not here to influence your votes nor to tell you which party is good, which party is bad. In my opinion, as long as a party works for Singapore's best interest, it is not a bad party. The purpose of this post is to let you realize that there are ALWAYS 2 sides to a coin. As voters, all you can do is to really go and read up / watch all their rallies (both parties) and choose the one that can truly TRULY represent your voice in the parliament. Choose the one that knows Singapore best and has the best policies offered for Singapore. Never NEVER choose a party based on how they degrade the other party / complain about the policies made and not come up with a policy that can REALLY solve the problem. I am not saying that the opposition party should not be involved in policy making. Instead, i do agree that there should be a voice from the opposition party in the parliament. this will ensure in the best policy made in our best interest.

Stop expecting the government to be perfect. No human is perfect. We make mistakes at times. The most important thing is to apologise after a mistake had been made and never make the same mistake again. It takes great courage to apologise to the public and admit your mistakes. So do not take our government for granted. We can "troubleshoot" or have our views or express our unhappiness about certain policies BUT always remember to first, appreciate what we have and what Singapore has achieved over the past decades before looking at the negative side. Life will be so much better this way. Weigh the pros and cons before making a comment or a decision.

Another view of mine, do not expect your MPs to go to your doorstep every other day when there's thousands and thousands of people in your constituency. Do not judge the amount of effort put in by your MP just by the amount of time he/she spends in visiting your doorstep. It's kinda "disturbing" when people complain about anything and everything. Your MP come and visit you, you complain saying that they disturb you. They don't visit you so frequently (but they do have the Meet-the-People session), and only visit you during election period, you say they are only doing the house-to-house visit because got election. A bit hard to please aye? This does not apply to the PAP only, this happens to the opposition parties too i believe. If you really want your MP to listen to your concerns, go to them and i believe they would be more than willing to help you. Meet-the-People session is one of the way to get your concerns heard. Then again, most people will say that Meet-the-People session is very troublesome. So yea, it's really hard to please you i guess. *sigh*

Most importantly, respect others' decisions as much as you respect yours. Do not get involved in immature acts like insulting the names of a particular politician/the name of the party or what so ever. Say facts about what you don't like about a particular party. Facts & ONLY facts. Not irrational thoughts and feelings. Do not let your angst affect your decision. Cool down, analyse. Not only listen to the arguments. Instead, look at the policies they offer (if any) and see if it will truly fit Singapore/Singaporeans, whether will it be an effective policy or whether it will result in more harm than benefits or vice versa.

DO NOT, i repeat, DO NOT, condemn each other for our choices. WE are Singaporeans. No matter what party you support, we're still coming together as a nation (:

I've said my piece on MY views for the upcoming election. I do not represent the voices of any party and this is not a post to degrade any party. This post is solely for me to express my views. You can agree, you can disagree. At the end of the day, the message i'm trying to get across is,

[ Get rid of all the angst in you and vote wisely. Choose the best voice you think can represent not only your Constituency but also Singapore in the Parliament. Think of what you truly want for the next 5 years and what Singapore really needs for the next 5 years. ]

4 words for all voters : Ask, Listen, Ponder, Understand.

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I appreciate everything that the government has done to make Singapore a better place. I'm thankful to live in Singapore despite some problems here and there but like i've said, no country is perfect. Appreciate what we have. Together, we can build a better future together (: I'm a proud Singaporean :D

On 4/5/11, PM Lee was on facebook to chat with Singaporeans about the hot topics for this election. Although not all questions were answered, I could see the effort put in to try to address the concerns. I believe that every single comment made by us was read by them and information were gathered to aid the government in coming up with better policies for us :D Anyone who want to know more about the facebook chat thingy, feel free to ask me or to visit http://www.facebook.com/pap.sg to read the issues raised and some of the responses PM Lee gave. :D

last of all, do not insult me based on what i've posted for i DID NOT insult any party in my post. (:

this is probably the longest post i've done. - 2428 words (y)

24/7

2011-05-02T05:07:00.002+08:00

and this is exactly how i'm feeling now,

24/7.

you weren't here today.

2011-05-01T03:36:00.002+08:00

my heart hurts so badly each time i'm reminded of you or anything related to you.

it hurts so badly that i'm starting to doubt if i'm ever gonna step out of the pain.

you are the reflection of a failed friendship.

a wound in my heart that will never heal.

and you weren't there during my saddest moment.

2011-05-01T03:27:00.002+08:00

i hate how things are falling apart in my life.

even my heart is falling apart.

strangers, again.

2011-04-28T15:58:00.006+08:00

but now, it's nothing but empty promises, empty words.

don't infer and make links anymore.

it's from tumblr and i just wanna blog.

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today, i'm not gonna cry because of you anymore.

i just wanna be happy.

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don't ever act like you care cuz you never did and never will.

you were actually 1/2 right i fell for something i fell for your words i grew dependent on you thinking that you will always be there when i fall with all your words and encouragement i took for granted this time i fell so badly you left at the slightest thought of that and i'm truly disappointed and upset i didn't had the courage to stop all the stupid depending thingy and you didn't had to courage to ask me about it but what's done had been done i remain my stand that what you thought was wrong

i should have left at the slightest feeling

i was nothing but a silly girl.

butnoidon'tlikeyou.

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i'm out of your life and you're out of mine.

strangers, again.

don't ask me. i'm not okay.

2011-04-27T22:06:00.003+08:00

i don't wanna hold it in anymore.

i don't wanna be strong anymore.

if you hadn't realise, i'm a girl.

what did i do to deserve such thingy?

i.really.hate.such.stuff.

and i'm utterly disappointed in you.

you chose to walk away instead of asking me.

i don't wanna face you ever again.

this time round, it's me giving up the friendship.

you left me crying like an idiot today.

the feeling sucked.

telling people i'm okay, i'm alright, no worries

when behind the computer screen, i'm crying so badly.

i'm not okay, i'm really not.

but i just wanna end all these.

it's affecting me a whole big deal.

but i'm exhausted.

so i choose to leave.

let me be the coward, once.

i don't wanna face you anymore.

like i've said, let's remain as acquaintances.

i'm really disappointed in you.

but most important, i'm the biggest disappointment to myself.

p.s don't ask me about this, i'll probably walk away.

just the way you are

2011-04-14T03:27:00.003+08:00

i just wanna say

i love you guys.

each and every one of you is irreplaceable in my heart.

i'll always remember you guys and love you guys just the way you are (:

i look forward to see all your faces again.

till then, study hard & take care!

love

qianying

woots

2011-04-14T02:52:00.003+08:00

last weekend was a ._.
both days were occupied by the "annual" tomb sweeping. ):
Saturday : woke up at 7am.
Sunday : woke up at 4am. :O
On Sunday, we even went to a relative's house after tomb sweeping.
Was soo frigging tired that i fell asleep there :X
but the food & bandung there was (y)
Back track a bit, on Saturday, after the "activity-of-the-day", we went to Bishan to have our breakfast & shopping. Didn't get what we want and went down to plaza sing. HOHOHO.

got this HUGE & SUPER BRIGHT torchlight for $29. (y)
it's really super good & damn suitable for "tomb-sweeping purposes" LOL.
Went home, had a nap and went down to Singapore Expo for ........
*drumroll*
the John Little Sales!!!!

those that went, GOOD FOR YOU~
those that didn't... oh well. there's always another sale (:

BOUGHT A LOT A LOT A LOT OF STUFF THERE~
Mummaye, sister & I spent a total of $296 (after discount) there. WOAHHHH~~
shall show you guys what I bought (:

minus the stuff that i can't show you guys of course. :X

Za concealer!

after discount : ~$7 each!
Usual Price: $13? (+/-)

so i bought 2 tubes! (hopefully can last till the next sale? LOL)

*sorry to put different brands side by side*
Maybelline Pure Pact Mineral Foundation! :D
after discount : ~ $9-10 (or cheaper)
usual price : $12?

(got to check out the price again BUT definitely cheaper at the sale!)

only bought 1 because i might be changing my brand of foundation :X

okay! enough of make-up.
now to my best buy of the day~~~~~~ tadaa~
MEMORY PILLOW!
it's CUMULUS BAMBOO CHARCOAL SERIES MEMORY FOAM PILLOW~

wahh. ATAS name siotzxzx (y)
just trying to show off the uses of this pillow
but i guess most pillows have these uses too :X
Now for the price difference....
*drumroll*~~~~

Original price : $89.90

guess what's the discounted price?

*suspense*
FRIGGING $29.90!!!!!

OMGGGG.

okay, this pillow clearly showed the kiasu side of me.
i shall share the story here.
i was browsing through the food section when suddenly, there's this voice that came out of the PA system.
i wasn't really paying attention because i usually would ignore such announcement.

then blah blah blah.
heard words like "hourly special" and stuff.

didn't really bother because i thought the items were those things that i'm not interested in.
then the magic word appear...
*memory pillow original price $89.90. now selling at only $29.90 with a further 20% discount*
WOAHHHHH.

i've always wanted a memory pillow but didn't get one because they are usually very expensive if you realise.
e.g. Jean Perry's memory pillow are usually selling at $129 ):
i walked/ran over to the place and saw that the pillows looked kinda decent and after thinking for 1-2 minutes (as usual) i GRABBED one. LOL.
took out my phone to call my sister and mummaye who were also in the hall but as the place was too big, i didn't want to waste time to walk around & find them.
grabbed another one for my sister and went to find them.
but bought one only in the end because Jean Perry's memory pillow was also selling at ~ $29.
DON'T SAY THAT I'M STUPID JUST BECAUSE I DIDN'T TAKE THE JEAN PERRY ONE!
i was comparing both and chose the one that i grabbed first because Jean Perry's pillow's shape wasn't really to my liking. too round ):
but anyway, was really proud of this BEST BUY OF THE DAY! :D
sleeping on it everyday and really, within seconds POP fall asleep~ :D
Side-track a little.
there was also a MPH sale at Hall.... 6?

Looked through the whole hall and only found this book that caught my eye.
as you guys can see, it's the same author as PS. I Love You (y)
I bought PS. I Love You too and i loveeeeeeee that book (y)

so i reckon, this book is going to be just as awesome :D
haven't started reading this because i've got 2 books on hand to clear despite my schedule. :X

Last but not least, the facial products!
i forgot to mention,
one of the brand was having a 20% +20% offer!
or was it all the facial product brands?

forgot :X
sorry~ it doesn't matter anyway right. the sale ended.

oh, and i also bought an Adidas shorts there which i forgot to take a picture of it and i'm too lazy to do so now. :P
next time if there's sucha sale, no harm going down to take a look!

you might never know what you'll find there! :D
those who say that Expo is too far,
i just wanna say : THERE'S NTH SUCH AS "FAR" IN SINGAPORE!
jurong - Expo only 1 hour~~~ it's not like you need 1 day to travel right. :D

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sorry for not updating for many many many days.

been busying preparing for a lot of things.

NCO POP.

trainings.

blah blah blah.

finally able to catch a breather nao but school is starting in another 4 days' time? ):
(not to mention that the timetable SUCKS)
whatever it is, i'm gonna take everything lightly.

not gonna show my emotions easily naoo.

control~ is the first step to success ^^

been playing maple nowadays.

(i heard people saying "no life")

SHUT UP. >:l

LOL. joking~

say whatever you want. it's not like i really care :D (y)

peace yo.

2011-04-06T00:33:00.002+08:00

i was wrong.

you're not childish.

you're worse than childish.

u're 20 this year?

please act like one.

no matter how you insult me on fb or blog,

i'm sorry

but i-don't-give-a-damn.

just don't put my name.

totally disgusted by your actions.

after so long, this is the first time i'm disliking someone to such extent.

i'm ready to read the next post of you scolding me.

xoxo.

final goodbye?

2011-04-04T23:07:00.002+08:00

looking through the fb page they've created,

i came to realise how much they have matured.

these few days, i've been wondering whether to leave or not

and my concern was the sec 2 squad.

but upon looking at the page, i know they are ready to stand on their on.

and i'm really proud of that.

from a squad who don't even know how to fall in, to a squad that will cry when they see their NCO doing push-ups.

i dare not say that i'm the one who taught them these

but i dare to say that i've been taking care of them behind-the-scene.

ensuring that their welfare and discipline is up there.

fighting so much for their welfare was never an easy task.

but i'm glad, my effort didnt go down the drain.

it's really time to leave i guess.

since there's nth much i can do already.

both the positive and negative aspects.

i can no longer do anything because i'm no longer needed in the unit.

after spending my past 5-6 years in npcc, i can't believe i'm finally leaving.

tears are forming.

i might regret in the future.

is this the final goodbye?

save me before i lose myself.

2011-04-01T02:57:00.000+08:00

getting hurt so many times,

i'm starting to lose faith in the word - friends.

be the reason for my smile.

2011-04-01T01:41:00.004+08:00

i'm giving up on our friendship.

i've thought abt it for a long time.

i guess it's better for us not to be bounded by the word "friend".

things will be more relaxed since we're not friends.

10 years down the road, perhaps i'll regret.

but for now, i believe it's best we're not friends.

i don't wanna be hurt by your sudden hot-cold behavior :/

sorry for being selfish.

sorry for wanting to protect myself.

one day, i believe, we'll be friends once again.

and i'll always be waiting for that day (:

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nope, the post above isn't for those childish people who love to scold me on fb, on blog.

i won't take back what i said.

you can't possibly blog & fb scold me then expect me to forgive you when you simply blame it on poor anger management.

i'm sorry, qy isn't such a person anymore.

and one thing i really don't like?

people apologise via blogging.

what's worse?

mentioning my name in the post.

grrrr.

been very angsty recently :/

but i shall remind myself that there are still tons of things out there for me to be happy about.

smile everyone (:

SMILE WITH MEYYYYYYY =DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

我好想抱著你訴苦卻顯得好無助

2011-03-31T02:17:00.001+08:00

我只想要
by: 七朵花

怎麼說忘就忘記 這甜蜜的過去 
被思念包著厚厚的糖衣 
不想再為了你傷心 這最冷的夏季 
慢慢地 慢慢結成冰 

承諾變悲哀 悲哀因我被愛 
悲哀是你因為你不在 
我好想抱著你訴苦 卻顯得好無助 
無助的讓人想痛哭 

我只想要 和你在一起 
朝著幸福走去 像戀人般的簡單甜蜜 
我只想要 和你不分離 
怎麼輕易放棄 說你忘記 

我想這一定是報應 都怪我太貪心 
才讓你頭也不回的離去 
黃色絲巾是想念 在樹上被風吹 
孤單的 孤單一個人無法沉睡 

愛情怎麼會讓每顆心都碎 
我不再相信你 卻又慢慢想起你

我只想要 和你在一起 
我只想要 和你不分離

take me away

2011-03-29T02:34:00.003+08:00

i don't blog in a "turn-one-big-round" way.

and i don't intend to do so.

recently, someone told me to learn how to open up to ppl, to share my feelings without the fear of being judged.

and hey, it makes perfect sense.

i know i always have this problem of opening up to ppl and i thought perhaps that person (let's name it Stitch [no special meaning, i merely saw my Stitch waterbottle beside me] )

okay, i thought perhaps Stitch could be the first one i open up to.

and guess wad?

i-was-brushed-off.

OUCH.

yea, that definitely hurt.

but being me, all i could do was to hide my hurt and said it's okay.

the next day, Stitch didnt ask about what i wanted to say the day before (despite promising to do so).

instead, Stitch said that i was acting weird with all my short replies but that was simply because i don't know how to talk / react / reply to someone who brushed me off just as i was sharing.

it's like someone who's afraid to step out of the door and finally she took the courage and place one foot out then BAAM.

someone splash a bucket of cold water on her and tadaa~ she don't dare to step out of the house again.

what if someone does that again the next time she tries to step out of the house?

i guess not everyone has all the courage in the world to keep trying.

yes, i know Thomas Edison tried 1000? times before inventing a lightbulb.

but i don't really think i have the courage to be hurt 1000 times before opening up myself.

no, i'm not blaming Stitch. (yea, REALLY)

i'm just trying to reflect how asshole we humans can be sometimes?

i mean, let's not try to be nice in times when we can't be.

don't promise someone that you'll be listening to her when you don't have the time to do so.

sometimes, it's best to leave things as it is if you can't commit.

it's better to tell her u'll listen/help her another time because you don't have the time now than to brush her off.

trust me, it's more hurting to be brushed off.

this is gonna be a major lesson for me.

ikr.

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i love it when i ----- after an angsty / angry post.

suddenly, the ansty-ness within me will die down and i'll feel all happy and cheerful again.

that inner peace (y)

okay, despite having that ~~stupid~~ headache for the past few weeks, i went with my mummaye to meet the tour person ytd evening to make payment for our Batam trip.

that guy was sooooooooooooooo friendly.

and he was talking about his VILLAS in Bali.

just by listening, i was so EGGCITED!

NEXT TRIP : BALI! probably during my June holidays~~!!

The Highlights! :

1. Personal Chauffeur + Car + Petrol (Mark [the friendly guy] will top up for free everyday!)

2. Handphone (Return upon checkout)

3. Cows outside your villa (belong to Mark but it's for tourists to see!)

4. All sorts of Watersports.

5. Security 24/7

6. Maid

7. Pay USD 20 - 30 for a 45 mins Submarine experience! :D

8. There's this beach (don't know the name) where one part is black sand and the other part is white sand. Mark said that when the Sun shines on the black sand, they sparkle like diamonds! OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

there are just so many things that he mentioned but i don't remember.

i'm gonna go this coming June~~~ *stay tuned*

okay, back to Batam.

this is my second time going to Batam

my first time to Batam was rather screwed.

I forgot if i'd blogged about it but yea.

everything was so rushed.

i hardly had any time to shop

most of my time there was staying in the resort which was rather boring.

the resort was.... *erhem* well..

only the rooms had air con, the living room didnt have and it was mad hot.

in order to have our meals, we have to spend 5 - 10 minutes going down the hill and after our meals, we have to climb back UP the hill.

the resort was super far from the shopping centres too.

about 30mins car ride?

we were all falling asleep in the VAN.

it wasn't even a comfy car.

the food was...

okay, i had to admit, the breakfast buffet was (y)

but our lunch was =.=

cuz we went with my mummaye's colleague's friends.

they practically ordered whatever they like without asking us. ):

BUT

despite all my negative experiences, i love Batam.

i love how time past slowly there and how i become uncontactable there.

LOL.

i love overseas trip because i can totally relax and not be a servant to technology.

i hate it when i touch my phone/laptop every now and then.

I truly enjoyed myself when i was in Cambodia.

i hardly touched my phone.

So was it in Batam.

Although this time round it's going to be a short 2d 1n trip, i have a feeling that i'm gonna totally enjoy it.

i'm gonna stay in a hotel! (y)

MAD LOVEE~~

it's gonna be my first time staying in a hotel. (DON'T LAUGH AT ME ): )

i'm gonna snap LOADS of photos and do a long long post on Batam :D

You guys should totally visit Batam at least once in your life.

although they don't really have SUPER cheap stuff like Bangkok, i love how the place is.

you can see everyone enjoying life, no one's rushing.

it's so calm and peaceful.

i don't see any kiasu / rude / loud behavior.

I'm gonna get Kueh Lapis and hopefully meet up with peiwen & dina to share with them :D

mad love their Kueh Lapis.

OH.

remember my hunt-for-sausage mission?

LOL.

i'm gonna go grab tons of it and come back to share with them too! :D

so nice of me. ikr :D

i was researching about the hotel - Golden View Hotel

there's steam & sauna! OMGGGG.

oh, the package that mummaye signed up for, there's traditional massage! (y)

the previous time i went to the _____ (not gonna mention the name of the resort), cannot have massage cuz nobody wants to ):

this time round, everyone's going for it! yayzxzx!

there's also a swimming pool & it looks clean! (the swimming pool at ____ was disgusting. the water was sea water and it looks dirty & cloudy)

there's also a fitness centre & billiard. but i don't think we'll be going to try them since we only have 2d 1n.

nonetheless, i'm satisfied with the itinerary!

i just realised that i've blogged a mad long post.

gonna stop here before i bore anyone out or make anyone's eyes drop out.

i don't think i'll be blogging all the way till i'm back from Batam.

shall do a post when i get back or perhaps i'll do a short post on friday.

STAY TUNED~! (y)

sucky or not?

2011-03-26T02:59:00.003+08:00

credits to whoever this work belongs to. you (y)

things are going downhill (yes, indeed)

tons of stuff to worry about in my mind.

failed ___________

flunked this sem

really CHILDISH ~~person~~ kiddo? (i'm sorry for using such a term) scolding me on facebook

you must be thinking, "life can't seem to get any better" right

BUT

i do have TONS of stuff to be happy actually.

1. i've cadets who really have the passion

2. i've found the reason why i've held on to NP for so long (y)

3. relationships are improving

4. I'M GOING BATAM NEXT WEEKEND double (y)

5. i'm starting to have a different perspective on stuff that used to mean something else to me.

6. i'm learning to open up to people who truly care

many many more :D

sometimes, i guess it's not how sucky something is.

but rather, how you look at something sucky (:

you can have the choice to either dwell in self-pity all day long or to spend the time to do something wise

there are a lot of people out there who are having a much more worse plight than us and despite their situation, they chose to fight for their life.

so who are we to whine & complain & cry all day all night over a small mistake/failure/problem/trouble.

so cut all your crap today & quit whining about your friend not replying you or whatever small thing it is.

instead of complaining that your friend isn't replying you,

might as well think WHY is your friend not replying you.

busy?

you suck?

phone spoil?

something happened?

i mean, hey.

you can't expect your friend to ALWAYS reply you right.

personally, i won't talk to/reply anyone if i'm feeling all shitty inside.

and i believe my close ones know that.

those who are not close to me are those to who are complaining on facebook now (y) *points at the guilty*

okay, shall stop being sarcastic.

but one thing for you to learn,

i don't clear misunderstandings.

i'm very stubborn & weird i guess?

nonetheless, i hope you'll stop it cuz i don't wanna see it? :/

neither do i wanna see you since u've said things to such extreme.

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ate Astons today.

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

felt as if i was eating beef sashimi ):

the meat was un-cooked.

seriously and to think i asked for medium.

my rice was soaked with blood.

almost puked out while eating. ):

i'm gonna have phobia of beef for quite some time i guess.

everyone has different opinion on which season is the best.

i have no special preference for any season since Singapore only has Summer all year round.

BUT

there's one season that i HATEEEEEEEEEEEEEE the most.

the

DURIAN

season =.=

durians are the SMELLIEST thing ever on Earth.

they are so smelly, i'd rather smell someone's perspiration-soaked shirt than durian.

how sensitive am i to durian?

i could smell it even if i'm in my room, door shut, aircon on, when my daddy eats it in the kitchen.

gahhhh. unbearable smell.

my entire family (paternal or maternal extended family too) eats durian.

EVERYONE EXCEPT ME ):

so whenever it's durian season, i'll see packets of durian in my kitchen.

and my family would be enjoying their durian feast while i'm hiding in my room under my blanket.

can you imagine my agony when they come in to the room and talk? *CRY*

i hate the person who first started eating durian.

rawwwr.

okay fine. shall stop whining about my hatred for durian.

amazed at how i could shift topic from beef --> season --> durian. LOL.

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OH MY BATAM TRIP!

i'm going Batam next week (again) yupyup ^^

i call this the hunt-for-my-beloved-sausage mission :D

glad i'm able to end this post with a happy note ^^

WISH ME LUCK YO!

p.s my posts have no direction.

topics fly everywhere ):

time to do some changes. (y)

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

2011-03-25T02:40:00.003+08:00

i'm currently facing a difficult decision in life.

to either carry on with the passion i started out with or to choose something that is practical. :/

both paths aren't easy way out.

WHYYYYY

WHYYYYYYYYYY I SO STRESS LIAO STILL MUST DECIDE.

BRRRRRRR.

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i don't write "chim-ly" like what most of my friends who blog.

i don't post full sentences, correct grammar, perfect english.

i hardly write about anything meaningful / thought-provoking.

but i guess,

this is me.

so quit mocking at me.

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i don't know if you'll read this or not

but i truly see you as my friend and i've never thought that one day this would happen.

i don't wanna lose a friend due to a cca that isn't everything in my life.

this is our 2nd major quarrel due to npcc.

i hope things will turn out fine soon.

gahhh :/

left right left.

pfft.

seriously, not that i'm oh-so-perfect.

cadets should seriously go and think of ways to improve their drills/campcraft instead of thinking of ways to make fun of me / CIs.

gahhh :/

stress.

THEIR promotion test next thursday.

here i am worrying for them.

but them?

sound asleep, thinking of ways to try to be funny tmr.

stressed - desserts

2011-03-23T02:46:00.002+08:00

i'm way too stress lately.

wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy tooooooooooooooooooooooo stress.

i need to find some activities to relax soon before i *BOOM* then byebyeeee

guess it's time to withdraw from NP for awhile.

the period of doubting my commitment to NP is back.

starting to wonder why do i serve & why do i bother to serve.

it always happen when i'm overly stress.

promotion test coming, attendance falling, morale dropping.

how to not stress ):

okay, i'm not gonna touch NP stuff tmr.

it's gonna be a free & easy day tmr.

i need a break!

have been worrying about NP since before camp till now.

i need to do stuff out of NP too.

gahhh.

wondering if i'm a good CI.

i need to improve ALOT i guess.

*pat pat*

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remember one of my goal for this holidays is to repair and maintain friendships?

i haven't been doing anything yet & i don't see myself doing anything.

i don't know why, all i wanna do now is to hide and not talk to anyone.

*smack face*

I MUST ACCOMPLISH THIS GOAL BEFORE SCHOOL REOPEN!

rawwr.

okay, this is becoming a nonsensical post.

shall end it here now.

tata~

-too stress, too stress :/-

黑社会

2011-03-23T02:24:00.004+08:00

ayeeee. so-called "fried spinach with butter sauce"

BUT

no butter taste leh ):

overall, not bad la (:

this one? hmmm.

so-so only ): didn't really eat much.

CODFISH. i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee codfish (y)

PEKING DUCK!

NOM NOM NOM!

NICEEEEEE.

the rest of the meat was used to cook with e-fu noodles (y) (which was super oily ): )
THE SOUP IS AWESOME-LICIOUS! (y)

it's only super simple ingredients like veg, mushroom & bamboo shoots!

NICEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
my sister's drink! --> (Kiss me not)

the waiter served the drink and he was saying "Kiss me not"

me: "yea, definitely not"

LOL. good for you if you understand the joke, if not, oh well... *awkward silence*

the drink got LIGHT STICK! (can bring home one!)

my drink! --> Tropical Larissa (Oolong Tea + fruits)

okay, i know the order of the photos a bit wrong, but oh well. i'm lazy to shift the photos :/

anyway, yea.

ANOTHER POST ON GOOD FOOD ^^

ate these at 黑社会 (Bosses' Restaurant)

food was good enough.

quite a high-end restaurant.

so expect the food to be of a certain standard i guess.

BUT

the dessert was not that awesome as i thought it would be.

i guess, life's fair? LOL

nobody can be perfect :P

so the food is good --> dessert not good.

Total bill for all these dishes was $200+

EXPENSIVE RIGHT.

oh well :/ luckily the food standard was not bad.

if not..............

it's located at Vivocity level 2 (near Sasa, build-a-bear, the walkway towards harbourfront)

go try it if you have the spare money. LOL

F-O-O-D

2011-03-20T23:59:00.000+08:00

got good lobang for everyone!

okay, not really super good but IMO, it's affordable, has good service & nice place!

i love love love love love love love steamboat so i'm always searching for steamboat places that are cheap, good & got air con :X

I usually go to Tian Tian Huo Guo but not quite pleased with their service & the place quite hot ):.

I used to think that Bugis' best steamboat place is TTHG

but on sunday, i went to this place called 火锅之家 just a few shops before TTHG.

I thought it our usual hot, stuffy and expensive steamboat BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT.

LOOK AT THE CRAB & "HUM" OMGGGG (fyi, i don't eat "hum" so it's not mine :X )

the soup was good (y)

not the salty kind of soup. so no worries your hair will drop like mad (no MSG too!)

look at the meat behind *drools*

GOT ICE CREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM *YUM YUM*

and is they serve you the ice cream one (y)

SUPER GOOD DINNER.

okay, for variety of food, not alot.

and those good food like meat, quail egg, seafood, etc, you must ask them to serve you.

so it's better that you ask what they have that is not on the trays of food. ^^

oh, and they have crayfish, mantou & some other stuff that are complimentary dishes.

Variety : 6/10

Value for money : 8/10

Service : 10/10 (definitely!)

I MUST MENTION THE SERVICE!

it's SUPER SUPER SUPER DUPER GOOD.

they are super attentive, efficient & friendly!

you keep requesting for stuff also they won't give you the "black face" that some people will give.

they are super patient and would always be ready to answer your queries.

Place : 9/10 (air con strong enough & they have the "thingy" to suck up the grease and smoke)

weekend : $18.80 per adult + $2 if you want the bbq thing

so approximately $20.80 per pax.

sister, jy & i went and the total bill was $63

BUT THE BOSS CHARGED US $60 ONLY!

meaning $20 per pax and we ate for 3 hours. LOL.

i didn't take much photo of the food but i assure you, the standard of the food is not bad (:

so the next time you're near bugis and have the craving for steamboat, go try this one! :D

campcamp

2011-03-17T05:38:00.002+08:00

okay, i'm going to camp in 1hr ++'s time?

i'm gonna do up a short post before i'm off for 3days.

i'm so nice (i know right) ^^

not really. it's just that i'm having this major assholey headache that won't go away and i can't sleep.

so since i'm left only with 45mins to sleep, might as well i try to squeeze out a post so that there's something for YOU (yes, you. the one reading this now) to read while i'm away for a camp.

this is my 7th NPCC camp (if i never count wrongly) and frankly?

having gone through SEVEN TIMES, i have no feeling for it already.

no excitement, no sian-ness, nothing.

just looking at it as a duty.

woah, it just rained.

totally random. but yeah.

but i guess, this camp is slightly more significant than other camps because this is gonna be the last camp with the squad i had the most feelings for.

i've seen them since sec 1 and through these years, a lot happened.

there were times when we were so close, so good.

there were times when we were like strangers.

nonetheless, it was a good 4 years with you guys.

i promised you guys that i would stay in this unit till the last person from your squad graduates, and i guess, i kept my promise. (y)

i wish you guys all the best, good luck, have fun ^^

it's time to move on. (:

it feels old to see your cadets graduating one by one.

it's like omg seeing them from sec 1 till now?

so much feelings, so much memories.

all the best (y)

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FOUR more weeks till the end of my year 2 holidays :/

i spent TWO weeks of my holidays like *POOF*

time to do something useful with my remaining holidays.

okay. left with 5 mins till i have to "wake up"

still need to iron my uniform because i crumpled it just now

i'm keeping my fingers crossed that this camp will be a good one.

wish me luck (y)

non-judgmental lens

2011-03-14T04:06:00.002+08:00

i guess, almost all have heard about the tsunami in Japan.

i just hope that everything will be fine soon.

may all the wishes and hope for a better tomorrow be as magnificent and great like the kites in the sky. they may be far but they are definitely within our grip. we are in full control of our future and our 'better tomorrow'.

i'm 100% positive that everything will be fine soon and a better tomorrow will come.

it won't rain forever.

a thunderstorm will end,

a sun will shine on our faces again

and a rainbow of hope will appear to remind us to never give up.

i know that God has a plan for all of us and He will definitely be looking after the victims of the tsunami. (:

believe in the God you believe in and hold on to the faith.

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it's 4.51am, i have to go down to unit tomorrow and i'm not sleeping yet.

crazy i know.

this is the 2nd week of my end-of-year2 holidays and i feel that i haven't been making good use of it.

during my past 2 holidays, i've been working throughout my holidays with hardly anytime to enjoy nor rest.

though it was tiring, it was fulfilling and fun.

this time round, nothing.

it's just going out with my sister, gaming, mj-ing, watching dramas & NPCC.

it's getting so mundane that i'm getting sick of it.

it's time to find something to do.

to learn a skill or to do something that i've always wanted to do.

but first of all, i must understand what i want to do.

which leads me to wonder,

do anyone dare to say that he/she understands me?

i see myself as someone who isn't exactly an open book but would always try to act like one.

i have tons of eccentric thoughts and my mood change faster than you could ever imagine.

i can argue with you about something that may seem ridiculous to everyone (even to myself) but i would fight my way through.

i wouldn't apologise to people who are angry at me. instead, i'll do more stuff to provoke them.

i see myself as a burden to people who care for me because of my behavior and personality and hurt them.

this is how weird i am yet there are still people who bother and care about me.

these are the people that God has placed in my life to let me know that i'm not alone.

because of all these people, i'm thankful to every single thing in my life.

yes, even stupid haters who just love to bitch about every single thing that i do.

(oh, don't get me started on this. pfft.)

in my life, i've never had the courage to call anyone my bestfriend in fear that the feelings wouldn't be reciprocated.

and at this very moment, i still can't say that i have a best friend.

seeing that others have best friends to share even their smallest secret, frankly?

i'm super duper envious. (not jealous, assholeys)

i've longed for someone to share the secrets that can go nowhere except my heart.

i've always wanted someone who will never judge me no matter what i do or say.

i believe, one day, someone whom i can truly call 'my bestfriend' will appear.

let me guess, i think we'll be super alike? LOL.

both retardedly eccentric.

okay, just joking.

enough of a heavy post.

let's talk about what i've done so far

1. Celebrated my sister's 21st birthday. (planned, decorated, put in tons of effort & money too)

2. Went to zoo (AWESOME) waiting for 2012 when the river safari opens and the panda, polar bears will all be there.

3. Learn how to play 'Blackshot' (okay, nothing to be proud of but still, something new right! ^^)

4. Went kite-flying at marina barrage! first time fly kite, first time to marina barrage! (except during the time when i ran past marina barrage during my 42km)

5. Tried using an instax camera! :D (the films burned a hole in my pocket)

6. Started saving up for my new phone (not gonna tell you all what phone. later all go buy then not special liao. LOL)

okay, i guess these are some of the things that i remember.

all done during these 2 weeks.

come to think of it, looking at all this, my holidays isn't really mundane. LOL.

but i'm gonna find better activities to do!

meanwhile, let's #pray for Japan & all countries that are affected by the Tsunami.

let's pray for a better tomorrow!

appreciate life,

live & let live,

love and be loved.

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sidenote,

i guess, being judgmental like an addiction/habit.

hard to kick off.

because if being judgmental can be cured, the word "ugly" wouldn't have exist.

only when you judge, you see someone as ugly.

then again, who are we to say that someone is ugly?

who sets the definition of "pretty" or "ugly".

what exactly is the definition of "ugly"?

there's no answer to this.

beauty lies in the eyes of its beholders.

so stop judging, today.

see the world through a non-judgmental lens, and the world would be a better place (:

what's going on?

2011-03-09T12:20:00.001+08:00

credits: http://kk.org/ct2/calvinhobbes_friends.jpg

friends. hmm. what can i say about it?

i'm not exactly the friend kind of friend.

as in, i don't see myself as the kind of friend that everyone wants/needs.

of course, i do try my best to be a friend that is there for my friend ALWAYS.

but friends around me do not stay. i don't know why.

there's just this very very close period then *poof* things "dilute"

i guess the problem lies with me, i can't keep friends. ): boohoo.

so this holiday, i'm gonna learn to interact with my friends more and spend more time to talk to them, understand them (:

it's not gonna be easy since i failed so many times ):

my aim is not only to keep friends, but try to repair broken relationships with people that i lost contact / had some conflicts with.

how old already? still quarrel like a kid mehhhhhhhhh. bleh.

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finally the end of all exams. i know i'm super late in blogging this.

just that recently no inspiration to blog so i didn't wanna do up a blog post just for the sake of doing it.

look at that crap "relationship" post.

i did it halfway and totally had no inspiration to continue so i just did a lousy work on it.

*guilty*

i guess i'll continue it soon la.

a bit stupid for me to leave it hanging there like that.

and omg, this sem's exam was the last time i'm gonna sit down in a room with my coursemates to do a paper for pcs ):

~~i'm gonna miss exams~~

okay. no more emo topic.

my TO DO list for this holiday :

1. earn / save money $$

2. gym gym gym

3. read 2 books ^^

4. (hopefully) get a part time job

5. lose weight :X (don't laugh, assholeys)

must make full use of my holidays and not sleep my way through.

come on, my friends please come ask me out okayzxzxzx. LOL.

not on fridays though. ):

NEXT WEEK IS UNIT CAMP~~

looking forward to it because it's gonna be my last camp with the squad i had the most feelings and passion for.

i'm gonna miss them hell loads. :/

but this is life - people come and go in your life.

as long as i've left an impact in their lives, it's good enough.

gahhh.

so sentimental. 5 years spent with them.

ogayyy. this blog post has been officially sucky cuz it's just a throw in of all my random thoughts.

no effort has been put in to do up this post.

goodbye. guess i'm gonna close down my blog soon :/

2011-02-24T01:27:00.002+08:00

sorry for not updating recently.

super busy with exams and stuff.

will do up a proper post soon.

prolly this weekend :D

stay tuned!

relationships

2011-02-16T19:39:00.002+08:00

as the title suggests,

yea, i'm gonna talk about relationships - bgr.

it's just so scary that friends around me are facing break-ups.

even those that are together for 1 yr + or even longer.

since young, we're taught - "and they live happily ever after"

so what exactly is "happily ever after"?

i'm not a "believer" nor fan of fairy tales because i don't grow up in an environment where "happily ever after" exists. not gonna elaborate on this though cuz my main focus is on bgr. not my family(:

but anyway, back to topic. i do believe that relationships can last. perhaps not towards the "fairytale style"

anyway, what i can say is, i think YOU suck ttm.

the end. KAYTHXBYE.

tumblr knows my heart.

2011-02-14T00:27:00.002+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY ♥

credits: tumblr.com

the one.

2011-02-10T01:07:00.001+08:00

are you the one?

i hope you are, but i no longer know. :/

grenade

2011-02-08T16:31:00.001+08:00

Easy come, Easy go
That's just how you live oh
Take, take, take it all
But ya never give

Should've known
You was trouble
From the first kiss
Had your eyes wide open,
Why were they open? (Oh)

Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash,
You tossed it in the trash you did
To give me all your love
Is all I ever asked
'Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my hand on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah )
I'd jump in front of a train for ya(yeah, yeah, yeah )
You know I'd do anything for ya(yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh,
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for you baby

But you won't do the same

No, no, no, no

Black, black, black and blue
Beat me till I'm numb
Tell the devil I said "hey" when you get back to where you're from
Mad woman, bad woman,
That's just what you are, yeah,
You'll smile in my face then
Rip the brakes out my car

Gave you all I had
And you tossed it in the trash
You tossed it in the trash, yes you did
To give me all your love
Is all I ever asked
Cause what you don't understand is

I'd catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my head on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for you baby
But you won't do the same

If my body was on fire, ooh
You'd watch me burn down in flames
You said you loved me you're a liar
Cause you never, ever, ever did baby...

But darlin' I'll still catch a grenade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
Throw my head on a blade for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
I'd jump in front of a train for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah)
You know I'd do anything for ya (yeah, yeah, yeah) Oh, oh
I would go through all this pain,
Take a bullet straight through my brain,
Yes, I would die for you baby
But you won't do the same.

No, you won't do the same,

You wouldn't do the same,
Ooh, you'll never do the same,
No, no, no, no

inspiration

2011-02-08T01:52:00.003+08:00

credits: tumblr.com

recently, my posts are more or less tumblr-inspired. LOL

tumblr knows my heart best. (y)

but i love how i can express freely on my blog.

I LOVE YOU BOTH! :D

anyway, yea. ytd was my birthday.

had a simple yet AWESOME celebration with my loved ones.

thanks to everyone. :D

i'll wait, if the wait is worth it.

i don't know what will happen in 3 weeks' time,

but i'll just take one step at a time.

what am i thinking?

2011-02-06T21:39:00.003+08:00

credits: tumblr.com

pictures to reflect my thoughts.

short and sweet post.

regrets are learning points

2011-02-05T00:36:00.003+08:00

okay. a proper post today!

CNY

every year, without fail, chinese new year = boring.

i don't have much relatives to visit :/

yea, so i don't usually look forward to chinese new year.

except for the buying clothes part and the angbaos. =D

oh, even the steamboat part is getting boring already. but i still enjoy eating steamboat though.

ironic much. but lalala.

but one thing's different this year. - the topic.

my love life has been the topic this year.

awkward max, ikr.

i was even asked when am i gonna get married. LOL.

yes, i'm only 19 this year. i thought this topic usually will start on someone who's mid-20s or late 20s

but frankly, it got me thinking that it's time to get someone. HAHAHAHA.

no, i'm not desperate. just that, come to think of it, it's time.

date a few more years, can get married liao.

just like one of my half-cousin.

in a r/s for 5 years already. another 6 years gonna get married (y)

11 years of r/s. wow. that idea sounds good.

but i don't think i'll wait for 11 years to get married. cuz by then, i'll be 30? OMG.

nonono. LOL. i wanna get married by 25! =D HAHAHAHA

6 more years left. jialat~ can find in time not. ):

HAHAHHAA. okay, that's just crap la kay.

okay, not really crap, some truth in it. but i'll leave it to u guys to guess which are the truthsss. :D

oh, and cny was 1/2 ruined by the atmosphere at home.

not gonna elaborate any further.

okay, i've lost my train of thoughts.

awesome. ):

shall continue later. =D

happy new year

2011-02-03T23:11:00.001+08:00

on 3/2/11,

i made a wish.

to be stronger, in loving you.

2011-02-01T01:11:00.003+08:00

thanks for making me smile though i'm feeling shitty now.

ur convos are always retarded.

thanks a million,

late-night-msn-buddy :D

p.s sometimes, SOMETIMES, i feel like kicking you for falling asleep in the middle of our conversation. LOL *peace* :D

:/

2011-01-28T01:23:00.004+08:00

today was depressing.
i used to think that i'll only receive such treatment when i do something wrong.
but today, i saw what happened.
upon seeing me at the main road waiting for cab, u turned behind and hid behind the pillar.
i saw it.
you didnt even bother to come forth to talk to me or even to stand near me.

~~why give birth to me if you don't want to see me.~~

i can't continue this post anymore.

sorry.

What's Your Talent! :D

2011-01-25T14:48:00.009+08:00

credits: xconomy.com

HELLO!

AWESOME PEOPLE!

Here's an awesome deal for you guys! :D

Just go to the link below, play the facebook game and stand a chance to win a Xbox 360 & Kinect!

It's a game that test you in different areas and you get to know what is your talent :D

click here!

i played the game and mwahaha. feel so smart

go play if you think you're smart or want to feel smarter. LOL

can also see what's your talent

because after the game, they will tell you what's your talent. :D

I hardly play facebook games but this is quite fun aye :D

go try go try!

can play as many times as you like.

try to get the highest score so as to win the Xbox 360 & Kinect!

Hope you'll be the winner! :D

sorry! :D

2011-01-24T22:01:00.003+08:00

Haven't been blogging for days. zomg.

What was i thinking / doing.

HAHAHAHA. THIS PHOTO JUST PURE RANDOM KAY. SUPER CUTE RIGHT. AWWWHH~

so forgive me for not updating :D

so here comes my update :D

PEIWEN'S / TIMOTHY'S / THEIR GROUP'S I&E

urm. pre ___________ vita concert? LMAO. i don't remember! HAHAHAHAHA. i'm so sorry :X i remember what it means in English okay! "Every life is precious, like a jewel" :D

throughout the whole concert, i only took one photo. feel so loserish. but oh well. LOL.

and WHY? CUZ HE'S SUPER AWESOME LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

He performed 2 songs without a single sheet of score. *faints* and it was as if he was in his own world when he was playing. we were just people peeping through a window to catch a glimpse of his life. Singapore got a lot of talented people aye! ):

Went NEX consecutively for 3 weeks =.=

Not a bad place for shopping :D but i'm sick of going NEX already. LOL. shall not go for the next 2 months?

oh oh. tried the bubble tea there (look at the photo)

it cost me $2.10 and it's so freaking small. i know the photo made it seem as though it's quite big.

but imagine, it's 1/2 the size of a bubble tea straw. LOL. PATHETIC TTM. ): felt so cheated when i saw my cup. my sister and my mummaye even LAUGHED-OUT-LOUD after seeing my cup ):

definitely 3/5 only (for my cup)

but 4/5 for my sister's almond milk tea! GAHHH. SUPER NICEEE~ :D

so contradicting. oh well.

done all my shopping for CNY already :D

super proud of my clothes this year! mwahahhaha.

shall take photos of all my clothes/accessories/heels when ALL have arrived. *wink wink*

can't wait for CNY to have a break from all assignments :D

birthday's coming too :D

happy happy. love it when my birthday is during cny season. :D

assignments are piling up ):

1. brain & behavior essay - 2/2/11

2. counseling individual assignment - 11/2/11

3. grpmgt group project - 17/2/11

4. legalf test - (guess) 18/2/11

haven't count exams yet. ughh.

JIAYOU EVERYONE!

and, i've been missing wuguii recently ):

wuguii is the hamster on my laptop's dp ):

oh well. rest in peace wherever you are kay.

mummaye love you (:

sleepy now. sorry for this crappy post. just wanted to update something and push that angsty post below. shall do a nice one soon (with all my cny clothes) :D

you are what you perceive yourself to be (:

2011-01-20T00:56:00.004+08:00

too tired to blog a long, proper post.

shall jot down this little thought of mine so that i can expand it later tmr or remind myself to blog about something tomorrow.

recently i've been reading magazines and blogs.

and i realise that most teenagers are taking their life wayyyy too lightly.

they say they want to die/want to jump off the building/commit suicide at the slightest thing like friendship problem or even breaking up with their girlf/boyf.

i find it really stupid. sorry, but yes, i used the word 'stupid'.

everyday, people are fighting against natural disasters/man-made disasters/diseases/cancers just so that they can live just one more day.

but there are people who'd rather die?

and cutting wrist =.= do you really think that by cutting your wrist will solve anything?

i'm just very pissed off by people who take their lives lightly.

i had relatives dying of cancer and all they wished was to live just another day or as long as they could. but they just had to be brought away by cancer.

they are the ones who treasure their lives more than anything but this just had to happen to them :/

time to wake up, stupid, naive teenagers.

step out of your comfort zone and quit living under the care and protection of your parents.

stop being the fragile teenager that can't even handle a small setback.

stop seeing death as an alternative to your problems.

IT IS NOT.

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i guess it's just me.

i'm not someone who would encourage people to gain pity from others to make themselves feel better. so if you ever need someone to pity you or encourage you to gain pity, don't come to me. i'll tell you to find a solution and move on. if you have a problem, you face it. if the problem isn't worth your effort, then throw it to the back of your head or better still, OUT of your head.

it's time to realise, if you hadn't, that life is full of setbacks.

there's only 2 options for you.

1. whine and rant and complain whole day why life is so unfair to you, be emo forever

2. find a solution to it, solve the problem and carry on with your life.

nothing's worth you staying stagnant in your life.

you have to move on.

who isn't burdened by problems? everyone is.

it's just how one would react to it that makes the difference.

sometimes, changing the way how you see something helps too. it's just how you perceive a situation that affects your mood sometimes.

yup, so everyone who's emo/depressed/sad now, try alternatives.

think positively. don't constantly live in your current state. step out of your comfort zone.

no, i'm not assuming that everyone is strong. but i believe everyone is strong enough to overcome their problems (: you can always turn to your friends for support. remember, you're not alone in this world.

it's not something easy, but if you don't take the first step, you'll forever be in that cycle.

goodluck, peeps (:

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okay, i know this was suppose to be a short post. but i had to type everything that came to my mind because i know i'll definitely forget everything tmr. xD

and, yea.

the amount of things i'm willing to share with you, is directly proportionate to the amount of things you're willing to share with me.

so if i'm not sharing things with you, it's probably because i don't feel that this sharing is 2-way.

but oh well, if you don't wanna share/can't be bothered, i can't force you too right?

this IS NOT towards any individual.

it's just something i want to share so people will understand me more.

(: one sharing a day, keeps accusation away~ :D

lastly, i just told my mummaye that i don't expect to celebrate my birthday this year.

not gonna share the reasons here. way toooooo personal.

it's better not to expect anything than to expect something and be disappointed afterwards.

i've decided how i'm gonna go about with my 21st though (which is 2 years from now. HAHAHAH)

p.s i apologise if this post sounded angsty or rude to you. i was quite angsty while blogging. yup.

thank you

2011-01-18T23:30:00.008+08:00

whenever i feel like exploding/ranting, she will always be there to listen and give advice to whatever i say without judging me. i feel so calm and relaxed after sharing. thanks a lot (:

i'll definitely know what to do the next time such a thing happens again. thanks a million.

a small sharing of myself.

i've never told anyone that i feel lonely.

and today, the first time in my life, i told someone that "i felt lonely"

it's the kind of emptiness in my heart that made me feel lonely. physical companion doesn't really help in this case. no matter how much i laugh and joke in school, the emptiness in my heart doesn't really diminish. it's just my mask to laugh and be loud in school to cover all the uncertainty and inferiority in me. :/ i have no idea why i'm sharing such a personal thing today. perhaps i just want people to know me better? (:

but i'm not gonna dwell in self-pity because it's just so not me. i'm gonna move on and fill my heart with meaningful stuff. gonna be the companion or filler to someone else's empty heart (: this shall be one of my 2011 resolutions :D 2012, i'll look back and see if i've fulfilled this resolution :DD

time to set my priorities right.

no more "awwhh-ing" over you.

need to really work super hard for this sem.

*push you to one corner of my mind* :D

JIAYOU QY! 你可以的 ! :D

and to mark this in my memory,

i donated blood today! :D

at NP's Ourspace at 11.50am :D

it felt like i've accomplished something great in my life :D

i'm so sorry i didn't manage to take a photo of my bandage before taking it out.

but smart people like YOU ALL, should know how to make use of the search engine - Google/Yahoo right :D

STRONGLY ENCOURAGE ALL OF YOU TO GO AND DONATE YOUR BLOOD TO SAVE A LIFE! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

it's not painful (i mean, i didn't really feel the pain) heh.

a picture speaks a thousand words

2011-01-16T23:40:00.007+08:00

they all say, a picture speaks a thousand words.

so i have a few thousand words here? :/

i wonder what goes through your head when you see me :/

credits: tumblr.com

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i'm sorry that i'm not replying you.

i'm sorry that i was being mean.

i'm sorry that things are like that now.

i'm sorry that i ruined yet another friendship.

perhaps i just can't maintain a friendship without ruining anything.

hope you'll have better friends.

thanks for being such an awesome and nice friend, late night msn buddy.

thanks for caring when no one cares.

don't turn back to this friendship, nothing's worth your effort.

hurt is caused, damage is done, sorry or not doesn't matter anymore.

*hug* take care.

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trying to stay positive despite all that's happening recently.

i'm strong enough to survive.

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14/1/11

my hamster died :/

RIP. whenever i walk to the kitchen, heart will sink to the bottom when i don't see the cage there:/ i miss you. i'm sorry.

on a lighter note,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARREN! :D

STAY AWESOME :D

okay, this post is quite late but i wished you many many times that day okay~ :D

you

2011-01-16T12:56:00.000+08:00

utterly hurt by those simple words from you.

have faith in me

2011-01-13T15:54:00.004+08:00

yea, this is the reason why i'm still holding on to everything that's keeping me going. things came collapsing on me recently again. and i'm finding it hard to smile and pretend that nothing's wrong when everything's wrong. it hurts to smile now. nonetheless, i just want to reassure everyone of you who's concerned about me that i WILL be alright. i have survived the previous phase and i'm sure i'll survive this phase too. it's just a phase of mine that i have to overcome it alone. I can't possibly depend on someone whenever something happens. It's just not helping me. It's time i stand up alone and deal with whatever that's coming against me (: trust me, friends. if i could, i'll really tell you guys everything that is going through my mind now but the reason why i'm not sharing fully is because the thoughts are all messed up in me and i can't put them into words for you.

yup, have faith in me and continue to pray for me are the only two things you guys can do for me i guess (: thank you all so much for the constant care and love showered on me despite me keeping you guys out of my circle. it's just something i need to learn when overcoming this phase too i guess. to stop pushing people away in fear that they will hurt me. i'm sorry to those whom i've pushed away before we could even get close. it's just me i guess :/ sorry for disappointing you sometimes.

but my greatest apology is to friends whom i've been unable to be there for you when you need me. sorry for promising that i'll be there for you always yet not living up to my promise. it's normal that you chose to drift away from me i guess since i haven't been making the effort to keep up with the friendship between us. it's just bugging me so much that i'm losing myself and friends around me. all i ask is that you'll place your faith in me that one day, when i've finally found myself, i'll come back to our friendship once again and fulfill my promise. this, i promise you my friend that i'll never break my promise again. sorry for the hurt.

i guess i'm no longer gonna try to fix friendships that are broken due to rumors. i'm at a loss of what am i suppose to do if random people just decide to bitch about me and the supposed friend of mine chose to believe them than me. sorry for letting go.

anyway, things are starting to get a little better i guess. with the support from you all, i'm starting to take the step out towards my fears. the steps will continue to come. and one day, i'll be able to smile as real as i can be.

this sums up what i have to say about what had happened to me recently.

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you,

i'm glad i chose to ask you about what happened between us instead of acting like nothing's wrong and slowly drifting apart. what you've requested last night is still in my mind and yes, i'm willing to wait for you to go through everything that you're going through now, friend. i just wanna let you know that no matter what i'm going through now, i'll still be there for you no matter what. no matter what time and where, when you need a listening ear, i'm here. one day, i hope that you'll no longer be an answering machine and share your thoughts and feelings with me freely without me probing much (: i believe that u'll be able to go through this period and be stronger after because you're awesomely strong. :D *hug*

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i'm not going to get emo over you ever again. if this is how things are going to be, i'll just go with the flow and take one step at a time. if things are not going to turn out like how i wish it would be, at least the most i can do is to prevent myself from losing our friendship. i just wanna care for you and be there for you. no expectations at all, i promise. and, isly. (:

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to give up, takes some time.

to carry on, takes some courage.

i choose to carry on for myself & for those who loves me.

thank you so much.

TYVM

2011-01-12T00:49:00.004+08:00

i guess, sometimes staying back really helps?

had dinner with pw today and was taking my own sweet time walking to the bus stop. even going to the toilet near cheers. that was when i received an sms from a friend telling me he's staying back in school to wait for another friend. stayed back with him and started having a HTHT (i suppose?). it was great, it was exactly something i need now. long chats to distract me from all that i'm going through now.though we weren't really talking about proper topics and the first 1/2 of our convo was basically about random stuff and disturbings, it really helped alot. everything was going nice and well, was laughing, giggling, retard-ing, nonsense-ing till *poke* we reached the sensitive topic. :/ and i can't believe i broke down infront of you. first time crying so badly in school and to make it worse, infront of you =.= nonetheless, thank you so much for the 2 hours chat (: retarded you may be, but you're still the awesome you i know (:

i'm feeling really shitty inside but nonetheless, life still goes on. stay strong, qy.

just so you know, you just stabbed me damn hard on my heart. and i'm not thankful to you for that. i guess it's your way of expressing that you're just not that into me. wadever reason it may be. damaged/hurt done.

i really need a break.

tumblr

2011-01-11T01:44:00.002+08:00

“I don’t pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.”
— Uknown

found this on tumblr and immediately knew that i'd to share this (:

and guess wad?

you came to my mind (:

pw, please don't box me ): HAHAHA. i love you :D

rainbow after thunderstorm

2011-01-11T01:24:00.001+08:00

THANKS A MILLION TRILLION ZILLION~ =D

i'm sorry for all the trouble caused :/

it may seem like a small gesture to you but it really means A LOT to me (:

like a rainbow after a thunderstorm :D

like a guardian angel (yes, i can imagine that =.= face on you BUT i really felt this way :X)

thanks a lot. thanks for everything.

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~~it got me wondering, where were you. :/~~

~~do you even bother :/~~

random only~

2011-01-10T02:43:00.000+08:00

just got to import my previous blog's posts to my current blog.

i'm super amused by how i used to blog and i used to use twit language.

HAHAHAHAHA.

TOTALLY CAN'T STAND MYSELF.

random much~

One day far from now, I want to just smile comfortably

2011-01-10T01:04:00.006+08:00

today was ultimate shitty. :/

shan't elaborate further here since this isn't exactly the right place to say such things.

but would really like to take this opportunity to thank some of the awesomest people in my life that were there for me.

my sister, dina, pw, tp, dnp, jy.

you guys were awesome.

thanks so much for the care and love and for my sister, time spent the whole day with me out when she could go home and rest. =D

i love you guys ttm ttm ttm ttm ttm.

i can tell everyone that i have awesome friends =D be jealous people~ HAHA. okay, no. be nice. u guys can have your awesome friends too =DDD

okay anyway, i was out whole day and i went to NEX =D awesome place i swear. super biggggggggggggggggg~~~~~ then went to vivo to watch [Meet the Parents : Little Fockers ] to cheer up and IT WAS SUPER DUPER HILARIOUS. WAS LAUGHING SO BADLY.

so glad we chose to watch a movie. totally relaxed and cheered up after the movie =D

ohoh, and i did retail therapy. HAHAHAHAHA.

bought 3 tops today. *guilty*

BUT i NOT shopaholic okay~~

i hardly buy clothes. it's all in the name of CNY. HAHAHAHAH.

totally in love with F21 now =DDDDDD

i've been watching ALOT of movies recently. i think GV should give me some platinum membership for being such a loyal movie-ian. LOL. nonsense. crap. i've been blogging nonsense nowadays but i'm a no sense person anyway right. :X

SCHOOL TMR~

I'M HAPPY CUZ I'M FINALLY GOING BACK TO A SCHOOL LIFE BUT I'M NOT HAPPY CUZ IT MEANS I'M GONNA BE DROWNED WITH SCHOOLWORK AGAIN. ):

well~~~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHI-ER-LING!

19 LOHHH~~

LAO REN LAO REN~

=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

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you.

i miss having you to talk to :/

i miss our never-ending conversations.

and today while walking around, i kept seeing things related to you.

till one point, i really thought i was crazy and hallucinating. :X ahh well.

i bet pw is gonna slap me again for thinking of you.

*world peace*

i don't know what to say

2011-01-08T23:23:00.001+08:00

people are getting sick and tired of me i guess?

haha :/

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OH'11 was fun on the last day!

had lots of laugh (:

people were nice and funny.

it really got all the unhappy stuff off my mind for awhile.

so glad that i chose to volunteer instead of staying at home, dwelling on how noob i am to make myself so upset over such small stuff when people in Cambodia are starving and worrying about not having enough to eat :/

i'm so immature this time. really need to stop all these nonsensical thoughts.

time for the old qy to be back.

time to stay away from you.

this post is so no sense no sense~ BUT I'M TIRED WAD. WAD TO DO. LOL

no la, will post something better tomorrow. *pinky promise* =D

WTS

2011-01-08T01:31:00.002+08:00

她让你憔悴许多
她让你不知所措
她一举一动你不停的对我说
我微笑倾听你说
我却越听越心痛
怎么你说的不是我
她比我多了什么
让你愿意耐心等候

我想知道她让你痴心是什么
我想知道她让你疯狂为什么
我知道做的和她没有不同
但是我却不在你心中逗留

我想知道她哪里比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什么不同
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我总换不了你的心动

你让我憔悴很多
你让我不知所措
你一举一动我的心被牵着走
她不经意的走过
你就把我给冷落
嫉妒把我给吞没
她比我多了什么
让你愿意耐心等候

我想知道她让你痴心是什么
我想知道她让你疯狂为什么
我知道做的和她没有不同
但是我却不在你心中逗留

我想知道她哪里比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什么不同
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我总换不了你的心动

我知道了她哪里比我好更多
在你心中我永远不可能会让你心动
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我在你心中没有她多

this is the best song to suit how i feel now :/

sometimes it's just so stupid how one moment i've decided to give up and the next moment falling even deeper just by a small act from you.

hate myself for being so weak :/ i need to pull myself away from you, now.

hurt me not

2011-01-07T01:35:00.002+08:00

sometimes i just wished that people don't tell me stuff because i can't understand their chim thoughts with my so-called simple mind. yet i really wanna know all the updates, care and be there for them. it's really a hell lot of internal struggle in me. it just sucks kay.

it's not easy for me at all.

so please be kind enough to not be offended by my simple mind. that's all i ask for. but till now, no one is able to forgive my simple mind and share with me without expecting that i'll reply/advice them in the chim manner like them. it's kinda hurting to know that people aren't exactly sharing things with you because you're a dumbass and they don't wanna spend some effort to tell you stuff.

if you're unable to understand and forgive how my mind works, then don't share anything with me anymore i guess. i will never meet your expectation of giving chim advice.

expectations. pfft.

2011-01-07T01:21:00.002+08:00

sometimes i just wonder if you bother how i feel/think/do.

keep your head down

2011-01-07T00:29:00.005+08:00

i did something kinda daring today?

i told someone that i merely know for a day who i like.

LOL.

but the thing is, i find more comfortable telling someone that i don't know well than someone i'm close with because there is no burden or worry that he/she will tell that person or tell anyone. not like he/she is so free to spread something about an acquaintance right :X

i'm glad i took the step forward in trusting again (:

shall continue to work towards my goal~ =D

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the more i get close, the more i'm afraid of losing it.

i'm not exactly happy now :/

i'm giving up. call me a loser or whatever, i'm really giving up.

i can't believe that i'm crying for you. :/

merci

2011-01-05T02:52:00.004+08:00

you came to my mind today as i was looking through all the photos i had.

memories were really POURING IN. i was reminded of how i got to know your existence, how i first talked to you and all those silly little conversations. all those silly disturb-ings from you. :P

i never told you before about me screenshot-ing one of the conversation we had about you assuring me about something. don't read too much into it, it's just me wanting to keep it as a memory (:

i guess i have never once told you a secret i had about you.

that is, you have left an impact in my life and you were the one who changed me and my perceptions about relationships and friendships and a lot of things. .

without you, i will probably still be someone who doesn't trust easily and have this wall between myself and others. you never know how much you've done to help me. i'm sorry that i'm not of much help though :X you're super chim and i'm just super simple? :/ i also wish to be so chim but i just can't ): limited space up there *points to head* ahh well :/ i'll try to be chim~~ for everyone! =D

though we end up quite badly now, being friends that hardly talk, i just wanna take this opportunity to thank you for all your retardedness that led to the building of our friendship. i never knew we will be friends and ya, i'm glad to have a friend like you (: for all that you've done for me during our short (few months) friendship, thank you (:

i'm sorry for all the nonsense? that i've created. i guess i must have gave u a hell load of troubles :X was being immature in the past (not that i've matured a lot now) but yea, that was the old qy. hopefully one day when we both can really have the regular chats we have again, i'll show you the new qy.

you're one friend i regretted losing.

take care buddy. have been reading your blog regularly and realise that there are somethings going on in your life but being the usual me, i don't dare to approach you and ask you about it for fear that you might not want to share and it will end up making me feel that the gap between us is getting wider. ignorance is bliss i guess (: i just wanna assume that we're still friends (: though you might not be visiting my blog anymore but i'm just keeping my fingers crossed, hoping that one day you might chance upon my blog and see this post. no, i'm not expecting anything to happen after you read this post. i just hope that u'll understand that u're not a bad friend to anyone and hope you'll continue to stay awesome as you are (:

signing off,

your friend

new year, new start

2011-01-02T03:07:00.003+08:00

new year, new start, new resolution (:

- don't tell you (: -

my TO-DO list for these few months:
1. get a new job to earn money for my laptop
2. study hard and push-up my GPA
3. lose weight (DAMN important)

stay tuned

2011-01-01T02:51:00.003+08:00

i'm suppose to do up my 2011's resolution and sum up of wad i've done for 2010 + a blog post on my manicure today.
but i'm just super duper tired to do anything.
in the last 48 hours, i only had 1 hr 30 mins (or less) of sleep.
super tired now that my brain is not working.
loads of photos to upload to.
so yup.
just like what the title says, "stay tuned"
i'll do up the 3 posts tmr.
definitely (:
goodnight ppl. i'm off to lala land.

goodbye 2010, hello 2011 (:

2011-01-01T00:00:00.002+08:00

Happy 2011!

But before we start celebrating for the brand new year, i shall look back at all the BIG things i've done in 2010 =D

February

my MOST expensive wallet (:

if i never remember wrongly, it's $98 dollars or more

from my aunt for my 18th birthday xD

March

MY FIRST EVER BOUGHT-BY-MYSELF CAMERA (:

S90 (: bought during the march (i think) IT fair at $700 xD

still using it and loving it (:

March - April / September - October

my first & second office job at T.Y.Lin International (:

one of the farewell photos (:

another farewell photo (:

MY FIRST BATAM TRIP!

2d1n trip only :X during october

the trip so-so only :/

but would definitely go back again this year! (:

October

after so many years of no A&W in Singapore, i finally got to eat at Batam!

not very nice actually :X but still, MEMORIES!

December

My first plane overseas trip to Cambodia!

First study trip, first plane ride, first time going overseas without my family (:

many many first times (:

AWESOME TRIP 13-17 december.

i promise to go back Cambodia after i graduate (:

my first 豆浆油条 combination (:

went geylang to have it & fell in love with it! xD

my first 4D show.

HAD A SHOCK, actually, many many shocksss. LOL.

but, i think everyone should go and try it at least once in your life xD

my first nails extension (: done at shining--nails.blogspot.com xD

okay, this roughly sums up my 2010 (the rest i forget alrdy :X)

hope 2011 will be a better one (:

just a dream

2010-12-30T00:29:00.004+08:00

ever since i know you,
my life has been on a roller coaster.
:/
i'm about to stop the roller coaster cuz i can't take it anymore.
will you ask me to stay?

no air no air~

2010-12-29T23:18:00.006+08:00

I LOVE THIS PIC! HAHAHAHA.
SO CUTE~~~ HELLO TO EVERYONE FROM ANY COUNTRY (:
got hello in all sorts of language here (: HEH.

last one, HELLO ALL MY FRIENDS (:

just read my blog stats and found out that i actually have secret readers (:
HELLO ALL MY SECRET READERS. THANK YOU ALL VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY MUCH FOR READING MY BLOG (:
I'M A HAPPY GIRL (:
continue reading my blog kay (: TAG ME IF YOU WANT. HAHAHAHA
i feel like i'm having imaginary secret readers.
HAHAHA. :X ahh well :X

I FEEL SO MOTIVATED TO BLOG EVERYDAY NAOOOO XDDDDD
=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

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went out with PW today (:
met at PS for thai express
DONE LOTS OF CATCHING UP AND SHOPPING TODAY (:
the $6 earrings i bought today. WTS.
BROKE NAOOO ):
but on the other hand, quite nice nice xDDD LOL.

MATCHING NECKLACES. 3 for $7 NICE AYEEEEE (:
PW DID THIS USING THAI EXPRESS' TISSUE. ITCHY HANDS. TSK! HAHAHA.

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i'm blessed with awesome friends around me who would care for me whenever i'm feeling down (:
to all my awesome friends, I LOVE YOU ALL (:

and today,
i thought of you (:
talked about you (:
blogged about you (:
11:11 (:

feeling crappy :/

2010-12-29T22:27:00.001+08:00

gonna find a job :/
i really don't wanna hear any more quarrels because of me already :/
):

be strong, qy.
you can do it (:

nth much, just pure random :P

2010-12-29T02:55:00.004+08:00

new/old blogskin! (:
*skips around room happily*
i don't care if you think that it's not nice :P
going out with PW tmr! (:
thai express-ing~~
SUPER LOTS OF CATCH-UP TO BE DONE! (:
i feel so loved that someone is asking me out. HAHAHAHA.
and 2010 is ending in *checks calendar* 2 days' time!
this is such a rubbishy post :X
shall end with a HANDSOME photo xDDDDDDDDD
*goes crazy*

WTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. WHY IS HE SO HOT :X

p.s. i'm so proud of myself cuz i'm just so good at editing html codes.
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAA :X

2010-12-29T01:16:00.002+08:00

seriously, does anyone ever read my blog without me asking you to?
i feel that my blog is kinda dead :/
):

you're a colorful frog

2010-12-28T03:29:00.004+08:00

i thought you were different.
i thought you had your own mind.
but i guess i was wrong all along.
you were just like the rest.
utterly disappointed.

i was taken for granted, again.
just like a "disposable" use-once-throw-away toy.
whole night's mood is so dampened :/
i just need someone to be there. to tell me i'm not a use-once-throw-away toy :/

smile, qy, smile.

to all of you in my life, i love you all (:

2010-12-27T23:40:00.008+08:00

Hello! the group of ppl whom i've lived together with for 18 years (: Isn't it cool? to know a group of people since you were born (: Anyway, in this very special appreciation post, i would like to thank everyone of you. Thanks for teaching me so much and contributing to my growing up years. (: though we don't have a normal family relationship like any other normal families, i'm still thankful that we're staying under one roof (: i appreciate every single thing that each of you have done for me (: Best of health and i love you all! =D

DA INSANEEEEEEEE (: Thanks for the ULTIMATE FUN during my last 2 years of secondary school life (: thanks for accepting me the way i am. i'd been an ass during secondary school (yes, i know :X) but you guys were always there for me, despite all quarrels and stuff. thanks alot. though we've drifted apart (super hell apart) due to a lot of reasons, i just wanna say that you guys still meant a lot to me (: you guys are irreplaceable in my heart and 10 years down the road, i'll still remember each and every one of you. let's invite one another to our weddings kay! (: our kids should play together in future! (: All the best in your future & i love you all! =D

Hello! my bestiozxzxzxzxzxzxzx till something happened :/ i just wanna say, i really missed those times when we spent together. those retarded times where we just go out and out and out and out and out and chat till there's no tomorrow. thanks for being there for me no matter what (: if i could turn back time, i'll definitely prevent that something from happening. but truth is, i can't turn time back and i'm happy that u've found awesome friends (: you're one of my most awesomest friends i've made in my 18 yrs of lifeeee (: all the best for your o's results and i love you! =D

Hello A14 (CIs first) (: Thanks for everything you all have taught me since i became a CI (: Thanks for all the care and fun (: you guys are so awesomely fun (: however, as we've changed. we're not as close as we used to be. conflicts, politics are happening. things are not as fun as before. nonetheless, we're A14 and we stand together no matter what (: all the best for the area and i love you all! =D

Hello cadets of A14 (: Thanks for the fun during all the area events that i've participated (: enjoy your secondary school life to the fullest and i love you all! =D

Hello T02!!! (: Thanks for making my PCS life such a fun one! (: you guys are one bunch of crazy fellas. i never thought i would have so much fun. thank you each and every one of you for every single thing you've done (be it good or bad) we're left with 1 yr+/- i would really treasure the remaining time we have together as a class and memories will be kept in my heart forever and ever (: all the best for all of our projects and i love you all! =D

HELLO RETARDS xDDD HAHAHAHA. no, my loveeeeeeeesssss (: i can't explain my love for you all. i just LOVE you guys kay (: it's really surprising how 4 totally different people can be tgt. i guess, we're same same but different. we're all retarded in different ways. thanks for going thru all my UPs and DOWNs. i love the way i can share everything with you guys and not have the "i-am-alone" feeling ever again. this is the first time i have a close friendship with girls and i hope i didn't do it badly :X thanks for being my listening earssss and my counsellorsssss (: i can't thank enough i guess (: there's just one million and one things i want to thank you guys. awwhh. i hope even after we graduate, we can meet up often and go shopping, chit chat, be retarded and play with dina's 12 kids (: all the best and i love you all! =D

BPPPPPPPPP (: you're the first person (+ grace) that i talked to on the first day of school (: never knew we would be BP (: THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL YOU'VE DONE FOR ME! i know i haven't been a nice friend to you :/ i just don't know how to interact with people. ahh well. HAHAAHAHA. no la. i mean, i'm still learning how to be a good friend to someone. thanks for not abandoning me no matter what i do. i love you ttm kay. hope we'll still be super good BPs even after we graduate. i truly truly truly truly hope that our friendship never ends (: actually, i don't mind you talking about f. i know i always react damn big when you pda or when you talk about him. but i really don't mind kay. i just can't help disturbing you (: heh. i'm sorry for all the ill-treatment kay :X i promise i'll be a nicer person =DDD all the best and i love you! =D

Hello PWWWWWWWW. we weren't close till yr 2 i think? and we became super duper duper duper duper close (at least that's what i think) ever since that day (: thanks for letting me know that i'm not alonee~~ we're all in this together~~ (: i appreciate your advices and listening ear and being my essay buddy! waiting for me till i finish my essay! super touched~~ it's like i can tell you anything at any time and any where yet u'll give me your 100% attention. awwhhh (: i know i've been super irritating to talk about SOMETHING for like 1 million and 1 times to you but u've never asked me to shut up (: i love you for your patience towards me (: i love the fact that i can tell you anything (: thanks for all you've done. you're awesome the way you are (: i hope we'll be super duper close friends forever~~ all the best and i love you! =D

NOOB ASS WAI. thanks for your retardedness (: u're the most retarded person i've ever met in my whole life. we can never have a serious and proper convo for long. it will usually end up damn retarded and we'll both start LOL-ing or HAHA-ing. ah well. thanks for being such a noob. just don't think too much at times xD HAHAHA. well, and stop being so fickle-minded. you were the one who wanted me to be more girl-like and now i'm slightly girl-like, yet you keep complaining. pftt. i wonder what you want uhh! =D haha. anyway, thanks for initiating the convos in the past when i wasn't quite a msn-chatter. (: thanks for all the silly convos each night which made me laugh A BIT (: i hope ur retardedness never ends (: all the best and i love you! =D

SHI-ER-LING! thanks for all the cab-ride-chats! and 61 BUDDY! (: though our chats are usually kinda short, i just wanna take this opportunity to tell you that i think that u're a matured person with a mind of your own (: and i love you for this (: u're like everyone's friend and i hardly see you angry (: that's something i really damn peifu. HAHAHAHA. especially someone like me :X ahh well. thanks for being such a nice friend (: and quite cool uhh, our school used to be so close to one another and *poof* we're in the same sch, same course, same class (: thanks dude (: i love you for the way you are (: all the best and i love you! =D

ALOHAAA~! MY STUDY TRIP CLASSMATES~ THANKS FOR THE COMPANION DURING THE 5D 4N TRIP. I LOVE YOU ALL! ROCK ON AND SING *AND A TRIP TO CAMBODIAAA~~* ALL THE BEST AND I LOVE YOU ALL! =D

DNP: i don't have an individual photo with you :X so let's just make do with this photo okay xD i know you since that ECH conference thing i guess? we got closer due to HI club and that idiotic "sanchewwww" thing =.= HAHA. but nonetheless, thanks for all the advices given from last time till now (: we were close before, but now, haha =X we all know what happened uhh :/ well. thanks for all the retarded chats and KIT KAT CHUNKY! dude i love you super loads for the kit kat chunkyssssssssss (: u're like santa claus uh. giving me chocolates during my sad days. i love you ttm (: but i know that kit kat chunky is gonna be the last one :X HAHAHAHAHA. wadever it is, thanks for being such a nice friend. I LOVE YOU~~ HAHAHHA. stop looking at yourself as someone who isn't a nice friend. you're nice in your own way (: i love you the way you are (: once again, thanks for that ~4 hours chat that day (: you rocks. take care, all the best and i love you! =D

TP: same thing, i don't have an individual photo with you so let's just use this photo kay. you see yourself and me in the same photo can le. HAHAHA. i feel so anyhow :X but well. i just know you not long ago. although you were the one who STARTED the "sanchew" thing >:0 though we just know each other not long ago, i'm so surprised at how nice you can be to everyone and to me of cuz. (: thanks for all the chats and nice words and wadever u've done for me kay (: it may seem very little to you but it means a lot to me (: u're a nice fella and i'm glad you're my friend (: thanks for all the late night chats(: u're like my late-night-msn-buddy. xDDDD u're REALLY SUPER NICE CAN. OMGGGGGGGGGG. :X i hope we'll be friends for a long long long time (: (like duh, who don't want a nice friend right =D) rock on, all the best and i love you! =D

HELLO. i know you won't be able to read this but i just wanna say, thanks for all the memories you've given me. grow up well and healthy. i love you (: i know i'll remember you forever and smile whenever i see this photo. thanks a lot for all the smiles and laughter you've brought to me. *hug* hope to see you if i ever return to Cambodia. all the best and i love you! =D

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to 050409, thanks for all the memories. though things have turned out to be like that, i just wanna say thank you to everything u've done for me. hopefully, in near future, we can be friends once again. when we all can put down our past and only look at our future, till then, i don't think we can really be friends. i hope u'll not do whatever u've done to hurt me to your future girl. (: all the best and i hope u'll find that special someone soon. (: take care, rock on and i love you! =D

And I might drive myself insane, If those lips aren't speakin my name

2010-12-27T05:01:00.006+08:00

have i ever mentioned that i have a "fetish" for guys in specs? HAHAHA. :X

I FINISHED MY LEGALF ESSAY XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

*fireworks everywhere*

5 more days to 2011! :D

i'm gonna do a LONG LONG list of things-i-did-in-2010 xD

i LOVED 2010, but i'm EXCITED for 2011

super hyper after completing my essay :DDDDDD

bad headache but I JUST WANNA BE HIGHHHHH ALL NIGHT

okay, no night, it's 5.08am already :/ sighhhhh.

11:11 (:

cheer up, dude

2010-12-25T22:46:00.001+08:00

i just read your blog.
i don't really know what to say to you nor what to ask you.
just hope to let you know,
i'm here for you always (:

impossible

2010-12-25T22:42:00.004+08:00

on x'mas, i've finally realised that i'm past the stage of having butterflies in my stomach/going super high/excitement when you talk to me/when i see you.

perhaps,
because deep in my heart,
i know we're impossible.

it's like an alarm constantly reminding me not to fall so deeply :/

random

2010-12-23T01:54:00.002+08:00

MY CONTACT LENSES ARE HERE~~ XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
i'm happy (:
kaythxbye~ xD

MY COLOR FOR X'MAS

SELFISH/SELFLESS

2010-12-22T21:37:00.006+08:00

someone/some ppl,
i've been wanting to say this for a very long time. and since i've nth to start my post with, i thought, maybe i can start with you. frankly, i don't know you that well and i'm VERY sure you don't know me well too. so i would really appreciate if you can keep your UNTRUE comments about me to yourself. don't act like you know me well. i know myself best and all i can say is, when i choose to act like i've not heard bad comments about me, doesn't mean that i secretly admit to all those. it's just because i don't want to stir up any conflict. i don't see the need to stir up conflicts unneccessarily although i'm loud at times. so please, if i did not comment about you, i would really appreciate it if you could leave my life alone and not screw it up. <3

spent my monday and tuesday doing IE project :X
first day was from dhoby ghaut --> bugis --> some wholesale market near bugis --> one of the group member's house (which i didnt go cuz i was rushing home :X the place was at bishan! ): )
second one was at compassvale. WOAHHHHHHHH. lol
it was awkward cuz my IE was combined with one of my groupmate's friend's group. we don't know them, they don't know us :X haha xD
ahhh well :/
everything will be done by friday (:

MY CONTACT LENS STILL NOT HERE ):
done a bit of online shopping these few days. found some really cheap accessories (finally) xD so proud of myself. one of the best items i got for myself is this really nice juicy bracelet (picture below) NICEEEE RIGHT (: i don't care if you think that it's not nice. LOL.

i'm not a spendthrift okay. i spent more than 1 hour to decide if this $5 bracelet was worth buying xDDD
Credits: liliesshop.net

credits: payless.com

and i got something like this for $5 oso xD

i didnt get my accessories from those website i credit above. the photo was just to show what i bought (:

PW
WHY ARE YOU NOT BACK YET ): RAWRRRRR~~!!
haha. xDDD

CHRISTMAS' COMING! <3

all i want for christmas, is YOU (:

Cambodia

2010-12-18T16:05:00.005+08:00

i'm back from Cambodia. 13 - 17 december.

quite a life-changing trip. not because it's my first plane ride or first time going overseas.

but because, i've learnt a lot during these 5days. i wouldn't dare to say that i have matured a lot from this trip. instead, i think my perceptions about many things have changed. What matters a lot in the past, doesn't really matter to me now already. things that i was very persistant about in the past suddenly seem so childish to me now :P also, the whole trip was very thought provoking. often, i would find myself leaving a place with my mind full of thoughts. especially after a home visit. i would really be thinking how exactly can we help so that they can really benefit from it.

i can't really describe with words how i feel about this whole trip. i guess, the only thing i can say is, i'm glad that i chose to go for the trip? <3

i wouldn't really go into details what happened during this whole trip cuz i'm just way too lazy to do so :X

YOU!
thanks for that 3 -4 hours chat <3 though i still don't believe that you purposely came over just to chat with me, i'm still thankful it (: you shared your secrets & i shared my ONE major secret :X haha. that feeling was good, though our convo started rather retarded-ly. and you gave me a scare when you appeared outside the window/door especially when the other channel was showing "chucky" =.= BUTBUTBUTBUTBUT, without you appearing, i would probably be sitting outside at the living room alone watching "Australia's Next Top Model" + "America's Masterchef" the whole night. HAHA :X thanks for the willingness to share what was in your complicated mind. i remember telling you that if someone were to open up your head, we would probably find a messed up head with wires connecting everywhere. okay, back to a serious note. our HTHT (?) session truly made me felt like we were friends at that moment. hahas. not like we weren't friends before this but rather, i could feel that our friendship isn't surface-y kind.
you made me very emo during our chat :X haha. you made me feel like falling for him was the worst decision ever made. HAHA. ahhh well. THANKS FOR THE TIME
THANKS BUD, I LOVE YOU (: but you love her. HAHAHAHAHHAHA. BOOHOO~ xDD

PW!
THANKS FOR SPAMMING MY FB WALL + COMING TO THE AIRPORT TO FETCH US! <3
I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU. <3
THANKS FOR ACCOMPANYING ME HOME TO PUT MY BAG AND GOING TO VIVO TO LISTEN TO MY STORIESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS (my never-ending stories) xDDDDD
okay *clears throat* since that day, i've been talking and talking and talking and talking about him yet you never once asked me to shut up xD *huggggg* <3
THANKS BUD, I LOVE YOU (: but you love him. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. BOOHOO~ xDD

i feel so retarded <3 ahh well.

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i realised that the more i try to give up and distance myself away from you, the more i find myself getting closer to you.
so i've decided that i'm gonna stop trying to give up.
i just hope that our r/s remains like that.
i won't expect anything out of this.
THANKS BUD, I LOVE YOU (: <3

trueeeee (some)

2010-12-08T23:09:00.003+08:00

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you meet that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

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it's so true for some of them :X
it's up to you to guess which is real to me xD haha.

2010-12-08T22:40:00.000+08:00

my heart is in a mess.
all smiles, laughters are fake.
a pretense to make me feel better.

am i wad i think i am to you?

2010-12-06T23:39:00.000+08:00

who i am to you?

any of you.

2010-12-04T19:43:00.001+08:00

a few more hours to the marathon yet i'm still not sleeping.
ALL THE BEST TO MYSELF!

2010-12-03T17:22:00.002+08:00

SCMS in 2 days time.
Cambodia study trip in 1 week.
super excited for both ^^

i was wondering on the bus why didnt i have any eyecandy or crushes in poly like in secondary school.
and i finally know why.

i'm afraid of the feeling that we'll be nothing but strangers or acquaintance after my 3 yrs of poly life.

that feeling sucks man. i don't wanna be nothing with ppl i love. ytrdy night, the thought of after 1yr plus more, all my poly friends are going to be my past. i no longer have reasons like "hey, let's meet in school to study or eat". it's like the link is broken. super upset over that thought. i dun wanna break any links. :/ but this is life. we move on.

i promise i'll make an extra effort to meet up with my loved ones in poly <3

i enjoyed my lunch date with pw and dina. we shared, laughed and get angry / sad together.
thanks for cheering me up <3

will continue my post when i get home

what i wan to say

boyf criteria!

有你真好。(:

我不甘心。

i wouldn't change any part of me, just to make you stay.

do you ever feel, like a plastic bag

i just wanna say

6/28

we are hungry, but they are starving!

it ends tonight.

"those who matter, don't mind and those who mind, don't matter"

tired of trying.

us

ouch.

speak no word but pictures.

let's dance in the rain.

i forgot a title.

暧昧

微笑。

One last chance.

the club can't even handle me right naoo

Ask, listen, ponder, understand.

24/7

you weren't here today.

and you weren't there during my saddest moment.

strangers, again.

don't ask me. i'm not okay.

just the way you are

woots

final goodbye?

save me before i lose myself.

be the reason for my smile.

我好想抱著你訴苦 卻顯得好無助

take me away

sucky or not?

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

stressed - desserts

黑社会

F-O-O-D

campcamp

non-judgmental lens

what's going on?

relationships

tumblr knows my heart.

the one.

grenade

inspiration

what am i thinking?

regrets are learning points

happy new year

:/

What's Your Talent! :D

sorry! :D

you are what you perceive yourself to be (:

thank you

a picture speaks a thousand words

you

have faith in me

TYVM

tumblr

rainbow after thunderstorm

random only~

One day far from now, I want to just smile comfortably

i don't know what to say

WTS

hurt me not

keep your head down

merci

new year, new start

stay tuned

goodbye 2010, hello 2011 (:

just a dream

no air no air~

feeling crappy :/

nth much, just pure random :P

you're a colorful frog

to all of you in my life, i love you all (:

And I might drive myself insane, If those lips aren't speakin my name

cheer up, dude

impossible

我好想抱著你訴苦卻顯得好無助